Love To Hate Me

Higher heels and lipstick napkins

I push my way threw the crowds and then I hear Craig's angelic voice. I smile threw the tears as I hear my favorite song Something.
I look at the stage full of fans supporting him and think thank god everyone gave him a chance. Maybe if they knew what an ass Ronnie was it would be different. I shake out the thoughts staring at Craig heading banging until I hear Ronnie's voice calling out for me. I think oh shit. I wipe my face waiting for him to start something me. I look to my left to see him closing in on my sights. He sighs pulling me in to the hiding spot we spent most of our relationship. I glare at him and say," Don't touch me!"
He looks at me with empathy and says," It really meant nothing to me. I had just been sad staring at all those sexy photos I have of you."
I roll my eyes and state," What a fucking lame ass excuse?! I came over to talk to you! You can fuck her out in the open, but can't hold my hand in public."
Ronnie frowns and says," Baby I am sorry. I really wanted hold your hand all time. She was just some fucking girl. Maybe you were fucking jealous because it wasn't you? What were you there for?"
I feel the heat on my face and say," You are so fucking bipolar Radke. I am fine without you. Maybe I'll go fuck Craig. I was there to talk about Andy wanting to tell Juliet about me and him." I think to myself why am I even still talking to him in our secret love hiding spot.
Ronnie searches for my eyes and says," I am sorry Ash. I just can't help to be that way around you. He shouldn't tell her at all. If he does and you get kicked out there is always room on my bus for you."
I roll my eyes and say," I would never want to be on the bus! Why would I? So I can listen to you fuck so whore?"
Ronnie grabs my hands and is about to speak when my phone rings. I push way and answer say," What's up Mabbitt?"
Ronnie groans and pulls me closer in to him. Craig says," Where are you babe? I heard you were crying. Who do I have to fuck up?"
I smile and say," I like that answer. Uhm Andy. I am with Radke."
Craig frowns and says," Why? Come over when you are done, bye love."
I smile and say," Bye Mabbitt." I slide my phone in my back pocket and say," I got to go Ron. I am done with our conversations like this."
Ronnie pulls me in to a kiss whispering," I love you."
I feel my heart shudder and say," I will always love you Ronnie, but this would never work."  I look at him one last time before I push past people to find Craig leaving upset Ronnie behind.
Ronnie's POV
I feel like such a fucking dick head. I wish she would just give me another chance. Fuck it! I guess I lost the best thing ever had. Fuck that! She will give me a chance I just have to make her believe that she wants to.
Ashley's POV
I look threw the crowds noticing the stage hands are setting up for falling in reverse. I don't want to see Ronnie anymore tonight. It's almost eight o clock, they should be going on soon. I look to the left of me and see handsome Craig with a new hair cut. He cut off his hair all the way up to his shoulders. I think damn this guy just got hotter. Craig smiles showing his semi messed up teeth. That's why I like him so much he doesn't care what other people think. I run and jump in to his arms. Only to hear a fan say," Damn Craig go get some." He smiles and says," yeah I plan to."
I bush and get down from having my legs wrapped around his waist. Craig winks and steals a kiss. I grab his jaw and deepen the kiss. He pulls aways and says," Let's save that for later babe."
I laugh and say," Can we go in bus and talk about something first?"
His eyebrows raise curiously and says," Those words always end up in me being pissed off or broken up with. Come on girl," he grabs my hands pulling me on to his black party bus. We walk past a bunch of people and red solo cups. He pulls me in a black door to his room. I smile and say,"Your hair cut is so fucking cute Craig."
He smiles a crooked smile and says," Thanks babe. You always look fucking hot. What did you have to tell me?"
I grab his upper arm and say," Ronnie kissed me again." I look down at the floor and pull him into a hug.
Craig licks his lips and clenches his fist. His face burning say," I don't know why he's still fucking bugging you. I mean I fucking like you a lot."
I smile and pull his lips to mine. I push him back on the bed straddling his waist. Craig winks and says," Not here baby. If we date I want things to be special. I don't want are first time to be angry sex."
I laugh and say," I was just going to kiss you. I know how cute you are." I tug at his dark locks of his short sweep haircut.
Craig groans and says," what have I gotten myself into crazy girl? Ronnie is going to fucking hate me more after this, but will you be my girlfriend."
I look in his eyes admiring his gentle nature. I knew he would kiss me in public. I don't know if it's fair though. I do still love Radke.....
What will she say?
Does Ronnie really love her?