Dead or alive I will still be here

mistake

Laurence's POV

Its been 2 weeks since I was diagnosed with being 'death' 

all i felt during those 2 weeks was pain and suffering  I felt like I was dying over and over again  and I was but I just wasn't dieing...I wanted to die...why me? why do I have to be death? Did sasha do this? Irene? I dont know. Lately I just wanted to be alone in my room alone...no one...just me...when aphmau leaves I huddle in the bath tub and tightly grasping my jeans and I cry wishing I was dead

"KILL ME" I scream banging my fist on the floor of the tub. Then katlyen came in the room and said

"laurance Im so sorry this is happening to you...you dont want to die I promise you... I felt this way whe- well its personal"  katlyen said hopping in the tub with me."you feel be-" katlyen said until I cut her off by emotionally kissing katlyen on the lips... I felt her rough lips....ohhhh laurance what did you just do!! "im-"i said until katlyen kissed me back a long kiss.. but i felt nothing...I made a big mistake