Fix Me Please

Chapter 24

When I woke up this morning I was super nervous. I knew I had to confront Gerard about his drug problem but what if he won't listen to me.

I get up and take a shower. I usually mull over things in the warm water.

When I get downstairs I decide to make Gerard some coffee. I thought it might be easier to discuss his problem over his favorite drink.

Soon he is coming down the stairs and I get tense.

" Good morning." Gerard says as he kisses my forehead

" Good morning." I say

" Sweet you made coffee you're the best." Gerard says

I nod and force a smile but at the same time my nails are digging into the countertop.

" Are you ok?" Gerard asks

I nod again afraid my voice will be shaking.

" You sure?" Gerard asks

" I'm fine." I say but my voice is barely a whisper

" What's bothering you?" Gerard asks as he gets up from the table

Soon he is next to me and I can't get it out. I shake my head because I can't speak.

" Come on tell me." Gerard says

I shake my head and head over to the couch. But he comes and sits next to me.

" If something was happening you would tell me right?" I ask

" Of course." Gerard says

I take a breath not sure if I want to out with it.

" Lyssa what's wrong?" Gerard asks

" I know you're doing drugs !" I blurt out

As soon as I said it I cover my mouth and run up the stairs.

I fly into my room and sit on my bed regretting what I had just done . He's definitely going to hate me now.

I hear him come into my room but I don't look at him. I feel the bed next to sink down from him sitting on the bed.

" I didn't want you to find out this way." Gerard says

I just stay silent .

" I'm not mad at you I just didn't want you to find out this way." Gerard says

" Why didn't you tell me sooner?" I ask

" I guess I didn't want you running away." Gerard says

" You've got to stop." I say

" What if I don't want to?" Gerard asks

" You've got to try. You can die from drugs . I don't want you dying on me." I say

" I'll try." Gerard says

I hug him and I don't let go.

" I'm so sorry." Gerard says

" It's fine . We all go through stuff." I say

" Come on let's go finish the coffee. Maybe we can do something fun to forget all the stuff this morning." Gerard says

" That would be good." I say

We laugh and go downstairs to finish the coffee. Before I finish I've made another life changing decision.

I have to tell the others. They're his band mates they deserve to know.

" I'll be right back ." I say