When We Broke-up

15 (PAST)

HIM

1

I don't understand how I can know so little about love and how it works. How I can be so bad at it when it's all I've ever wanted. All I've ever known is about leaving or leaving her.

"Hey baby..."

I saw Wendy moving seductively, all she wanted is sex, not make love but sex. I don't even know what to do but I'm starting to get bored at Maine.

Maine isn't seductive at all, she don't flirt but cuddle. All she wanted is to talk, and talk and talk. But I'm a man, I do have 'needs'. Cold shower helps but damn, she's too innocent.

I do 'self-service' but geez! Everytime I make a move, umiiwas siya. Siguro nahahalata niya na, pero lagi niyang sinasabi na hindi pa siya ready.

"Bakit ayaw mo makipag hiwalay sa kanya? Maine is boring, napaka simple. But compare to me, I'm more sexier, prettier, at may sex appeal."

"Could you just please stop Wendy?!"

Gulong-gulo na ako, makikipag hiwalay o hindi? Wendy is a model, FHM model. But Maine is a simple but professional actress.

When I turned around, Wendy is already naked. I gulped and looked away, huwag kang magpadala, I already have a girlfriend and that's Maine.

She kissed me, and the rest is ecstasy.

But I still love Maine.

******

2

I looked at Porcia, she's Wendy's friend. Lasing na lasing na kasi siya so umuwi na. Kami na lang natira dito.

"Tama si Wendy, you're so handsome and hot."

I just chuckled and drink all these alcohols na inorder ni Porcia. Namumula na rin siya at halatang lasing na lasing na.

"Can you kiss me Alden?"

I chuckled, then everything went blury, sobrang nakakahilo na. Nakaramdam na lang ako na may humalik sa akin.

Her lips tastes like whiskey. She's a good kisser too.

But I love Maine...

*****

3

Hinang-hina na ako, I don't even know kung sino ang kasama ko ngayon. But fvck, I'm burning up, I want to take a cold shower but I don't know where am I.

"Where are we going? W-Who are *hik* you?"

I tried to look at the girl but sobrang sakit na talaga ng ulo ko, ang labo lahat ng nakikita ko.

"It's me, Porcia. Don't you remember?"

"...and we're heading to a motel--I mean to heaven...."

I love Maine?

******

4

"Divina."

I said sweetly, she smiled to me and waved at me, all I can do is to wave back. I'm so confused right now. I must love her again.

"Hi Alden!"

All I can do is to stare at her, I looked at her crinkling eyes, her pointed nose, her kissable lips. Do I still love this girl?

"Mainenamahal kita Divina..."

I know she already sense that it was all an act, bumakas ang isang masayahing mukha niya at kunyaring kinilig.

"Maalden din kita..."

All our fans gone wild but this is the only way, we need to act that we really are inlove. It was all an act but I know for her, tinototoo niya kasi mahal niya ako.

I don't want to fall out of love but feeling ko nasasakal na ako, sobrang nasasakal na ako. Ayoko ko siyang masaktan but she's so boring, she don't understand my needs, I'm a man.

*****

5

"What will I do Wendy?"

"Break-up with her."

"You're not even helping Wendy, I know there's a solution."

"Solution? You fell out of love so that means you don't love her anymore! Break-up with her!"

I looked at Wendy, she likes me. I don't know if she likes me or my wealth, my fame maybe? But ayokong saktan si Maine.

Maine is so fragile, madali siyang masaktan, but geez nasasakal na ako sa relasyon na ito! She's so possessive! Selosa, yes! But geez I'm so confused.

--

"Love..."

I turned around, I saw her. Her face looks pale at kakagaling lang sa iyak, I know she's not okay. She needs me but is this the right time to break-up with her?

"Maine..."

She hugged me but will I hug her back? Should I hug her back? I must but no, I need to tell her these things...

"M-Maine---"

"It's Love, please call me Love. Not Maine please, you're creeping me out!"

I saw her eyes watering, I want to wiped it no. I'm so confused kung ano na ba talaga ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya.

Often times people may confuse love with lust. If you do not know which is which then whenever, whatever you feel for a person, I am willing to bet is lust.

"M-May sasabihin ako...."

Sex just complicates everything , it stresses love it causes jealousy and it beats curiosity

"Let's b---"

"Are you going to break-up with me?"

I'm so sorry, Maine. I don't know if I still love you or not..

"No..."

I dont know if I still love her.