When We Broke-up

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Hey, I'm very sorry medyo matagal ang UD ko, (matagal ba? Sorry na.) well lagi kasi ako nanunuod ng kalyeserye replays, yung TP, July 16 and etc.

Sepanx pa more.
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MAINE

Wala si Paul ngayon, 2 weeks siyang mawawala kasi may business trip siya and may meeting din. Busy rin kasi siya pagdating sa work, pero he always send me some of his selfies and sweet messages.

I'm really happy kasi he always making me smile like an idiot, he always make me feel kilig. Cheesy kasi siya, and corny too. Pamela is always texting me if I'm okay because kinukulit daw siya ng Kuya niya.

Pero sometimes when I'm with Paul, I can't feel such thing called love. He's inlove with me but I don't think I'm inlove with him too, ayoko naman siya saktan and paasahin diba? But maybe the next day, matututunan ko na din siyang mahalin.

"Hey idiot, why are you smiling? Buti na lang at ako lang ang nandito. Nababaliw ka na."

I looked up and I saw Coleen, she's smiling at me like an idiot. Kahit kailan talaga ay hindi nauubusan ng pang-aasar sa akin. With her 'nakakainis' lines and sometimes nabubugbog ko na siya. Sisterly love daw, tss.

"Nothing, may naaalala lang."

"Hmm? Sino kaya yun? Si Paul ba?"

I hit her, and yes she screamed. She hitted me back using her sandals, mas masakit kaya sa akin! Sandal yun compare to my hand?! Unfair!

"Can you just leave me alone for a moment? Just please! Ugh, nakakainis ka na ah!"

She just laugh her ass out while walking out, Coleen is already engaged with Kuya Mike and I know na hindi naman nila sasaktan ang isa't-isa lalo na moody si Coleen at napagtatiyagaan pa ni Kuya.

I'm bored, I dont know what to do, Paul isn't here and Pam and I are still not close, awkward nga diba? Sometimes kasi quiet lang si Pam so ako na lang ang dumadaldal and nakakapanibago ng nature kasi ako lang nagsasalita.

Paul and I are still getting to know each other, he's super sungit when Pam is always with him. Masungit na Kuya siya when it comes to her but when I'm with him, he's super sweet and caring.

"Hey Maine, aalis muna ako, today kasi ako susukatan ng wedding gown. I'm so excited!"

I looked at Coleen while giggling, nakakainggit siya, buti pa siya kakasal na with the man she loves, eh ako? Hopeless romantic. I know naman na aalagaan nila ang isa't-isa, and I know they love each other. I trust Kuya Mike, hindi niya sasaktan si Coleen.

"Okay! Goodluck kung magkakasya yung wedding gown!"

"You bitch!"

We started laughing and hitting each, she's still fat, but atleast bawing-bawi sa face diba? Coleen is pretty and I know it, kaya nga siya nagustuhan ni Kuya Mike diba?

When Coleen left, the house was silent because I'm all alone, sina Nanay at Tatay ay nasa work while Dean is with his soon-to-be girlfriend while si Kuya Nico ay gumagala. Yaya Pepe is with Ate Niki at their house, kailangan ng katulong kasi Matti is all grown up and napaka kulit na.

Noong natutong maglakad si Matti, lagi na siyang naglalaro with his friends sa village, mas naging maharot na ito, he started speaking na rin. Tulad ng 'Mama' and 'Dada'. Cute right? Kung magkaka-anak ako, I want the best for them, I want all my attention are for them. Ayokong matulad sila sa akin, weird.

"Maine."

I almost jumped at the couch when I saw him standing infront of me holding flowers, I stared at his eyes and I know he's crying already, he's wearing his shirt with my name on it. That shirt is my gift on our 1st Anniversary.

"What are you doing in here?! P-Paano ka nakapasok?!"

He held my hand and hugged me, I pushed him kahit alam kong gusto ko rin siyang yakapin pabalik, I don't deserve him, I don't. Sinaktan niya na ako ng maraming beses at ayokong maulit ulit yun, ayoko na.

"Please pabayaan mo muna akong yakapin kita, Maine mahal na mahal kita. Alam kong alam mo yan, at alam kong mahal mo parin ako."

"Please lumabas ka na! Labas!"

I pushed him and slapped him, I don't want to hurt him but I must, ayoko na siyang makita pang muli, ayoko na siyang makitang umiiyak sa harapan ko na nagmamakaawa, ayokong maramdaman na mahal ko parin siya hanggang ngayon.

"M-Maine, I love you..."

"Leave this goddamn house RJ! LUMABAS KA NA!"

Lumuhod siya sa harapan ko, nararamdaman ko na nasasaktan na rin siya, pero ayoko na. Pagod na pagod na ako kakaiyak dahil lang sa kanya, I know I don't deserve him, he deserve better, but I'm not the one for her.

"Ayoko, please tell me, mahal mo parin ba ako? Please tell me!"

Hinagis ko ang bulaklak na bigay niya, I still do love him, hanggang ngayon mahal na mahal ko parin siya, pero hanggang ngayon ang sakit sakit parin ng mga ginawa niya sa akin. Sakit sakit parin hanggang ngayon.

"I don't love you anymore! Stop pestering! Leave this house or I'll call a police!"

He hugged me, hinayaan ko na lang siya, naramdaman ko na hinlikan niya ang buhok ko, like he used to do noong kami pa, alam kong hindi na maibabalik ang dati kami. Hinding-hindi na mangyayari yun, malabo na.

"I know you can't do that, I know you still love me. Please huwag ka nang magsinungaling pa, mahal mo pa ako diba? Love?"

"Stop calling me Love, hindi na ako ang Maine na minahal mo noon! Hindi na! Malabo na mangyari ang hinihiling mo! Masaya na ako sa iba! Please lang lubayan mo na ako..."

"I know you're not happy with him! You don't love him! Please ako na lang ulit, please Love..."

"Pagod na pagod na ako RJ, please lang. Lubayan mo na ako, you don't deserve me..."

"Mahal na mahal kita love, mahal na mahal..."

"RJ..."

I stared at him, he brushed my hair and smiled sadly, gusto kong pahidin lahat ng mga natitirang luha niya pero bawal. Masakit na, ang sakit sakit parin. Ayoko na...

"I miss your scent, your hair, your lips, I love you..."

He hugged me again, at alam kong last na to. Pero bakit parang ayoko parin siyang umalis? Bakit parang ayoko ko pa siyang paalisin? Just because I still love him?

"L-Leave, just leave..."

He kissed my forehead. I wiped his tears and he smiles, I want to tell him that I still love him, and I will never forget him but I can't...

"Please tell me you love me too, please I'm begging..."

"H-Hindi ko kaya..."