Trapped 2

Chapter 26

Wanna know something? why did I even try with him? he won't have to deal with me anymore though, forever.

Wanna know something else too? Sometimes I think suicide is the only way ou- never-mind, you probably never would even care anyways, right?

I decided to start writing a journal for a month or 2, you know to start off all happy, then get all depressed and unhappy. like i am right now.

it's like im never happy, seriously im NEVER EVER happy with myself, usually either are my parents, YEAH, MY OWN GODDAMN PARENTS!

I started with..

Dear Diary,

I don't know what to put right now, so I'll start off with, my life is great nothing is worrying me one bit, honestly my life is great, NOTHING can get into the way of it.

I met this boy today, we'll these 'boys' today. there very nice, everything about them is perfect! I like the one named Ashton, you know?

Ashton Irwin?

Yeah him, he's perfect, everything about them specifically is P-E-R-F-E-C-T.

Well, gotta go, the boys are coming over now. 👌

I started 2 years ago, when i seriously met them, not now again.

You know that everything about me was perfect till i met them? like seriously EVERYTHING!

Then, now comes, everything falls apart, like seriously everything, like i said i wish everything was back to normal.

"Jordan?.."

"WHAT ?!"

"Wow! Chill, were leaving today, hope you won't get upset, right?"

"Yeah, trust me Luke, definitely won't be getting upset about this.."

only about Calum, Ashton, and Michael only though..

"I'll miss you..."

"Yeah.."

"what's wrong?"

"oh nothing, just tired, that's all."

"want to get in bed now?"

I didn't think he got what i meant, honestly.

"What?!"

"Not that way, stupid!"

"Whatever.."

"You guys ready to leave?"

"Sure, Jordan wanna come with us?"

"No thank you, guys. but thanks anyways..."

"Yeah? That's fine, maybe next time?"

"Yeah, whatever.. Bye guys..."

"Bye Jordan! 😓"

"Aw, don't cry Calum, I'll miss you the most!"

"thanks.. it won't be the same without you, Jordan.."

"I'll be fine guys, don't worry about me!"

"Let's go boys!"

"Gotta go.. Bye.."

"Bye, Luke.."

"See you in 1 more year?"

"yeah.."