From Nerd To Badass Agent (On Hold)

Chapter 11: What The Hell Do You Mean You Knew?

     I couldn't breathe. It felt like all the air had been sucked from my lungs, and I couldn't get anymore of it in. I heard faint voices shouting at me, but the felt so far away. They only thing I could think about is him, and how he almost destroyed me and my team. He couldn't be alive he just couldn't.

I heard running footsteps coming towards us, and Ryan and Marvin appeared out of the shadows.

"Please tell me we didn't hear what we think we heard." Marvin said with hope in his voice as if it wasn't true.

"What's going on? Who is Alexander? What is wrong with Aubrey and Evan?" This time is was Alex who spoke. Concern was seeping from his voice.

Evan, I hadn't even thought about what this news would do to Evan. I was so selfish, my life wasn't the only one that had been forever changed by this monster. In my daze I looked over and saw Alex and Ryan holding back Evan from trying to kill Richard. I faintly heard them yell at him to get the hell out of here, and not to say a word to anyone about our conversation.

We needed to get our act together. If anyone saw our team like this, they would know something is up and that would not end well.

"Bree?" Connor said sitting down against the wall next to me. "Bree, please talk to us."

     I couldn't bring myself to look at him. I needed a drink, or maybe a few. I needed to forget to make the pain go away.

     "You're gonna hurt yourself" Conner said slowly prying my hands away from my stomach which I had been clutching for dear life.

     I needed to forget. Just for tonight, the shock was to much. So I did the only thing I could think of, I turned to my old best friend and asked for her help.

     "Ash, do you" I stopped and took a breath "Do you remember when we used to be best friends up until the middle of junior year?" I asked. Without waiting for her response I continued, "remember when Danny Mall cheated on you with that whore Jenny, and then that same week Julian Davis cheated on me with her as well? Do you remember what we did after that?" I waited for her response, silently praying that we could put our differences away for one night.

     "Yes, why do you ask?" She replied. Before her eyes lit up in understanding. She hesitated before holding out her hand to help me up, "this doesn't mean I like you or anything." She said, but not in a mean way. She said it almost like she regretted saying it.

     "Me either, just for tonight." I said with the same meaning and regret as her.

     As we started to walk back to the bar I heard Ryan call out, "what are you guys doing?"

    "We are going to go forget and have fun, the two steps to getting better when something bad happens." Ashley replied looping her arm through mine and pulling me towards the bar just like old times.

     "So you are just going to drink and dance the problem away?" I voice I knew all to well bit out harshly.

    I froze and slowly turned around. Everyone was looking between Evan and I. Ashley and Alex looked surprised at his tone of voice, but I expected something like this. I saw Connor whisper something to Evan but he just shook Connor off.

    "What do you want me to do Evan? What do you want me to do? I've cried about it already, I've planed out ways to murder that son of a bitch, only to be told that he was dead and I would never get my revenge. And now I learn that he is alive, what do you want me to do. It's not like I can find him tonight and exact my revenge, or hurt him as bad as he hurt us. I'm in pain and you should know why. I need to forget, I just need to forget for this one night. If I don't I'm afraid that the pain will consume me. I need to get past the pain of the first night and get to the anger. So that I will get to the part where I can destroy him in the same painful way that he almost destroyed me." I finish my speech and throughout it I am only looking at Evan. I don't know what the others are thinking, or are even feeling right now but they don't matter.