Forever Waiting (Kim Jonghyun x reader)

Chapter 13: ♫ The name I love ♫

AN: thank you so much for the comments it really motivated me :)

Unfortunately school ended too soon, well for me at least. I slowly put all my books back in my bag before leaving the classroom to be met with Jonghyun waiting outside.

"Hey jjongie!~" Siran called out.

'Of course he wasn't waiting outside for me, how stupid! He was waiting for his nasty girlfriend.' I silently walked away but as I was about to go down the stairs I heard someone call my name. Knowing exactly who it was I went down the stairs to meet with the others but as soon as I reached the last step a hand held on my wrist "let go Jonghyun."

"I said to wait but you didn't!" Jonghyun pouted as he gave me puppy eyes "I didn't hear you, sorry." I ripped my hand from his grip and kept walking with Jonghyun right beside me "you don't have to give me such a cold shoulder you know." I remained silent and he kept talking "you're going to love where we're going to go with the others." I stayed silent again "are you really not going to talk me?" I could practically tell he was pouting by this time. He was going to say something else but I saw Taemin and waved at him "Taemin!"

"Ah hi [y/n]" Taemin smiled and brought me in a hug.

"I guess that's all of us! Let's go." Jinki smiled.

"Mm where though?" Kibum asked and Jonghyun answered "I know the perfect place, follow me!" Jonghyun did a gesture with his hand to follow him as he started walking.

I was to engrossed in talking to Taemin the whole way that I didn't notice we already reached the place that Jonghyun led us to "the perfect place to get close and have some fun again is the entertainment centre!" Jonghyun smiled brightly but I froze.

I stared at the building as memories of the day that ruined me emotionally ran through my head. Now I understand what he meant, this was where we went on that 'trial date' to see if it was good enough for Siran. I bit my lower lip as I tried my hardest not to cry and try to get the memories out of my head but it was no luck.

"[y/n], [y/n] are you okay?" Taemin's worried voice rang in my ears but I was still stuck in my memories and all I could do was slightly nod before managing to snap out of it.

"You sure?" Micha asked softly as she walked over to hug me

"Yeah" I replied quietly with a small smile "l-let's have some fun."

"Okay" Taemin grabbed onto my hand to rub soft circles on as he was still unsure.

"Hm what should we do?" Jinki asked.

"Bowling!" both Minho and Micha cheered making all of us laugh.

"Bowling it is" Jinki laughed as we all headed to bowling. Once getting our lane Jonghyun set everything up for us.

It was actually really fun going bowling with others but unfortunately none of us were any match for the sassy Kibum "whooo! I beat you all!~" Kibum sang as he did a victory dance causing all of us to laugh.

"What would you guys like to do next?" Taemin asked once Kibum was done with his victory dance.

"We could go to the arcade?" Jonghyun suggested.

"That sounds like a good idea." Jinki nodded.

"Arcade it is~" Kibum smiled before we all headed to the arcade.

Everyone delegated to play their own games that they enjoyed so the only people left stuck together was Taemin, Jonghyun and I. Unfortunately for me Taemin had to go to the bathroom, leaving me all alone with Jonghyun.

"You having fun?" Jonghyun asked but I didn't reply "come one you haven't spoken to me at all!" I could tell he was pouting but I kept looking the other way.

Jonghyun used his thumb and index finger to make me look directly at him "[y/n] please... I'm trying to get close to you again too.. Not just them" Jonghun said softly as he leaned closer "please...I miss the old times where we would laugh and joke around with each other...I want it to be like how it used to be...please?" Jonghyun's hot breath fanned my face from how close we were. I could feel that my heart was beating faster even though I wish it didn't "please [y/n]?"

"N-no." I stuttered out.

"No?"

"No! Jonghyun you made me suffer so much! Your stupid girlfriend made me suffer so much and the other day I accidentally confessed to you but you're just acting like nothing ever happened between us! It can't be how it used to be, it can never be how it used to be." By the end of my speech I was breathing heavily and my eyes were watering but I refused to cry. I refused to cry in front of him.

Jonghyun stared at me with wide eyes at my sudden outburst, after a few minutes of staring I couldn't take it anymore. I left. I rushed out of the place and got on the next bus to go home. As soon as I was on the bus I texted Taemin.

To Taeminnie
Hey, I wasn't feeling well so I left, see you at school tomorrow

Putting my earphones in, I locked my phone and didn't bother reading what Taemin texted back. I closed my eyes and tried to distract myself with my music on the bus but when the song 'I need u' came on, I broke down, crying silently at the back of the bus as memories rushed though my mind of our good times together.