I heard on Monday what happened and I haven't stopped crying...I loved him so so much and it hurts so fucking much...my chest hurts. I can't and still haven't accepted that he's gone...I miss him so much and I feel awful... he helped me through my tough GCSE years but no one was there to help him with his depression...
My weak ass can't bring myself to read all the information I can't and I don't know what I'm saying but I just need to let it out.
I'm mad, mad as hell that NOW everyone is appreciating SHINee and Jonghyun NOW they're editing him or whatever and it annoys me! It annoys me so much because they never appreciated him enough but now he's dead EVERYONE's appreciating him. Gosh I'm just so mad and upset and I want to scream! Why did he have to leave? I can't take it! My heart hurts, I can't sleep or eat ffs it hurts so much whenever I see a picture of him and honestly he's everywhere!! On my instagram feed and twitter and I can't stand it I freak out and get all ready and just I'm sorry I don't know if I'll be able to finish this book after finding out about his death I'm sorry :((
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Forever Waiting (Kim Jonghyun x reader)
FanfictionA girl who thought she'd never fall for a guy. A guy who doesn't realise he fell for someone hence he keeps going out with girls one after the other. Will they ever be together & be happy? Or will people just meddle? Enjoy reading this Jonghyun x re...
