Forever Waiting (Kim Jonghyun x reader)

Chapter 14: ♫ Odd Eye ♫

As soon as I got home I took a shower to freshen myself up, I tried being quick so I won't get stuck in my head and end up taking a extremely long shower.

Once I was done I dried myself and got changed in one of my onesies before making my way downstairs. Making myself a cup of hot chocolate and grabbing a blanket from where we kept them I made myself comfy before putting on a anime marathon. Snuggling into my blanket I sipped my hot chocolate as I put the volume up so I wouldn't get lost in my thoughts.

It was going great as not a single thought of the day went through my mind. However after watching a few episodes I heard the doorbell ring making me groan in annoyance. Putting my cup down and wrapping my blanket around me I grabbed the key and opened the door.

The only thing I could do was stare at the person with a blank expressions, we stared at each other for a while before I got impatient "are you just going stand there and say nothing?" I could hear the venom in my voice.

"I-I want to say I'm sorry [y/n]" Jonghyun said softly "I really am sorry...I really do want things to go back to how it used to be, I really do, I miss you and us being us..."

"I-I don't know...I mean...aren't you annoyed at me that I confessed and y-you're just acting like I said nothing?" I asked quietly as I played with my hands.

Jonghyun walked past me to get inside instead of answering "I never said you could come in." I said as I walked to where he was going "well tough, I'm inside" Jonghyun said as he sat down in the couch "oooh Tokyo ghoul? I've always wanted to watch this anime."

"Jonghyun." I called out his name but he kept talking on about anything around the living room "Jonghyun." I called out again but he kept rambling about random things "Jonghyun!"

"What?" Jonghyun blinked at me with a blank expression using his puppy eyes that makes me melt "y-you didn't answer my question..."

Jonghyun stared at me for a bit before sighing "I'm going to be honest..." Jonghyun paused and I nodded for him to continue as I sat on the couch beside him "I...I really am sorry for what I did to you I really am...I just got lost in Siran's beauty that... I guess I kind of forgot about everything else but when I saw you with Taemin at prom...I don't know I felt...jealous? I didn't know why... But when I did kiss you at prom, I lied about what I said the other day, I enjoyed it. I really did and it made me conflicted inside because...I didn't feel bad about cheating on Siran because the kiss felt right...and that just made me feel guilty...so I decided to ignore you and do all those things so it'll make me stop thinking about you...I know what I did was wrong and I shouldn't have done it...that's why I'm so sorry..." Jonghyun sighed before continuing "and when I saw you running to Taemin crying...I knew I messed up big time and I felt even worst then before...I wanted to make things right...that's why I wanted to apologise to you but when I came to you and you didn't reply to me but instead you confessed...that made me restart thinking about you and everything again...It made me realise that I miss you...I miss us and that I need you in my life..."

I was speechless once Jonghyun was done with his confession "[y/n]? [y/n] please say something..."

"I forgive you."

"Wait what? You do?"

I nodded "I do...there's no point in holding a grudge and I know you mean your apology...."

"Oh my god thank you so much" Jonghyun smiled brightly as he hugged onto me. Unconsciously smiling, I hugged him back. I missed him. I missed his hugs so we stayed like that for a while, holding onto each other.

"[y/n]? Can I confirm something?" Jonghyun asked after a while as he pulled away to look at me.

"Yeah, go ahead" I nodded, unsure on what he wanted to confirm.

I was utterly shocked when he brushed his lips against mine, I was frozen but soon closed my eyes when he started kissing me, I couldn't control my body as I started kissing him back. I could hear my mind saying pull away! Stop kissing him! But I couldn't. I kept kissing back as he deepened the kiss making my mind go blank until he pulled away slightly "[y/n]..." Jonghyun called out my name softly "there's no way about it...I-i love you [y/n]...I'll make it right between us...I'll fix everything..."

I couldn't help but get emotional, I hung my head low but Jonghyun lifted it up with his index finger and thumb "I really do love you..I was stupid for not realising it sooner..."

"I-I love you too..." I said softly "but that doesn't mean I can t-trust you after what you did..."

"I know and I'll fix that, I'll make you trust me again."

"And one other thing...w-what about Siran?"

"I-I'll sort it out...I'll sort everything out...and once everything will be done will you be my girlfriend?" Jonghyun asked with hopeful eyes.

"Only when Siran's out the picture..." I said to which Jonghyun nodded to with a huge smile.

"I'll make everything up to you, I promise." Jonghyun said as he kissed the top of my head.
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AN: AAAAAH, it's progressing~