The Clan Part 1: Lost (Monsta X / Reader)

Chapter 14

Darkness.

It was all that you remembered. All that you could see.

You there was a light air to you, as if you were suspended over an infinite abyss, completely enveloped in the black that touched you from every angle. Yet you were strangely calm and at peace with yourself, as if you were finally capable of relaxing after undergoing some major stress. From what was a question you didn't have the answer to.

Finally, in the distance, you could see a speck of light. An end to the tunnel of soothing silence and calming thoughts. You started towards it, each step bringing you closer and closer to its warmth until the tranquility slowly started to melt away.

The darkness returned in a rush just as you entered what seemed to be the light's center. One second you were blinded by the brightness, the next you were thrown through the harsh transition to black and the contrast left your head spinning.

This time, it was different than before. You felt compressed with dull, aching pain all over your body. You wanted so desperately to be free of whatever trap you were in, but the second you tried to move a limb, agony like liquid fire shot up your arm. Your nerves flared and a strangled cry wanted to leave your throat. Instead, nothing came out. It was a silent scream that no one could hear - not even you.

A way you could explain your experience was drowning. Yes, you were drowning... suffocating on the pain that choked up your lungs and clouded your nasal passages; submerged in this new form of darkness that shrouded your entire body.

Then a familiar sound crept into your ear, causing you to stop struggling momentarily against the smothering black. Your ears strained to pick it up; waiting patiently as it slowly grew until its clarity rushed into your mind.

"(Y/N)."

It was Hyungwon's voice.

Hyungwon..? You whispered in your head. All of a sudden, you could picture yourself kneeling against an invisible floor and stretching your arm out. Reaching up to grasp the remnants of any sanity you had left. Reaching to grasp something that was impossible to touch. You wanted to shout so that Hyungwon could hear you; so that he could find you and pull you out of this hell. But like before, nothing would escape. Help me! Please! I'm begging you..!

Then you saw the body. The still, broken body that appeared before you could finish the plea that arose in your head. You opened your mouth as the first sound you've made since you woke up slipped through your lips and burned your throat.

"(Y/N)! Wake up..."

It was him; the one who died. But how can this be? You slowly pushed the body over so you could get a clear view of his face. His skin was pale, yet clear as porcelain and completely free of injuries. His eyes were glassy and cold, forever staring at nothing except the continuous black of the sky.

Tears sprung in the corners of your eyes. Hyungwon? You shivered at the sudden decline of temperature as you tried to touch his cheeks - feel his warmth underneath your palms. You leaned down to let your forehead rest against his, salty droplets falling down your face and leaving trails of despair in their wake. Closing your eyes, you whimpered "I'm sorry" in your mind, frustrated that you couldn't voice your words out loud.

A tear slipped off your skin... and evaporated into the dark air before it could dampen Hyungwon's shirt beneath your hands. Then the soft fabric of his shirt instantly disappeared from your touch. Surprised, you eyes snapped open only to be greeted by the sight of absolutely nothing. No Hyungwon. No body. No anything. Just black. Your eyes widened, perplexed and terrified.

No...

Memories suddenly flooded your mind; painful, terrifying memories of a body graphically bruised beyond recognition and a sharp object snatching away the only thing you ever cared about in a splatter of dark red. You remembered everything down to the last brutal detail and you realized why: you were experiencing it again. Just like the day that changed your life forever, something you cherished was robbed, snatched from your possession like a thief in the night - a night that was stained with scarlet.