At our first kiss I felt something melt inside me that hurt in an exquisite way. All my longings, all my dreams and sweet pain, all the secrets that slept deep within me came awake.
I arrive at my apartment at half past nine and decide to take a shower first. While showering I recall the whole day and everything that happened, I feel that I'm blushing by the thought of Hansol. I jump out of the shower, put on fresh clothes and call Evelyn.
"Hi cutie, how was your day?" answers Evelyn to my call.
"Hey! I seriously have no right words for this day. Hansol and I kissed each other" I say right away.
"WHAT? How did that happen??" she asks shocked.
I tell her that Hansol invited me to his house, showed me around, ate dinner together and that we discussed about what we should do about our dates since he isn't allowed to have a girlfriend or even meet a girl due to his strict contract. I also tell her about Hansol asking me out and that all this lead to our first kiss. Evelyn asks if anything more happened than just a passionate kiss but I need to disappoint her; nothing more happened. And maybe it's good that it was just a kiss I think..
I get a message from Hansol.
HANSOL
「 11:32pm
Are you sleeping? 」
ME
「 11:33pm
I'm going to sleep. 」
HANSOL
「 11:35pm
You should ask me as well! Rude.. 」
HANSOL
「 11:40pm
Why aren't you answering? Are you mad? 」
I'm just sitting here thinking about if I did the right thing; to allow that we date each other.
I mean I should be grateful and happy that an Idol wants me as his girlfriend, and I'm super happy about that, but I'm so worried about his career and his manager would never accept our relationship.. I'm 100% sure that I will get hurt and the relationship will end.
Hansol is calling me right now. God, why are you doing this to me.. but since he called I have to answer.
"Is everything alright?" asks Hansol.
"Yeah.. well I'm not sure." I say.
"What is it?" he asks.
"I'm scared that our relationship won't work out and that one of us gets hurt. I don't know if I can date you with these circumstances to be honest.."
"I see. Well, we can try, you know?"
"I miss you" I say.
"We'll see each other soon!" he hangs up.
I go outside the rooftop to catch some fresh air before going to sleep. The view is really great and the stars are shining bright today. It was really an overwhelming day that I will never forget.
"I came" says a voice.
I turn around and see Hansol standing behind me.
"Oh, what's going on?" I smile confused.
"You said you miss me, so I came" he says.
"I didn't tell you to come though. But seeing you is great!" I laugh.
"Isn't it nice here? The biggest advantage of living in a rooftop apartment is that the view is great" I continue to say.
"The view from my house is way prettier" he teases me.
I try to hold a laugh because he always tries to tease me but I carry it off well and try to find something to tease him back but he's just way better at teasing than I am.
For a few seconds we don't say anything.
"Kissing.. can we only kiss once per day?" I ask jokingly.
"Are you asking me to kiss you like that?" Hansol smirks.
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《 What if we run away? 》
Fanfiction「 It started out simple, but when your feelings start to grow for someone who isn't allowed to date, things get complicated. There was only one question I could ask myself; what if we run away? 」
