《 What if we run away? 》

↠ chapter six

I walk into the bus and take a seat next to the window in the last row. I just want to be alone right now and cry myself to sleep when I get home. I look out the window and see Hansol running inside the bus. Why does he take the same bus? His home is in the other direction. He walks towards me, out of breath.

"Y/N. I want to give you something.." he holds a small blue box in his hand and gives it to me.

"What is it?" I ask.

"I bought it a few days ago because I thought it was pretty and I wanted to give it to you but I didn't find the courage yet, until now. I want you to have it" he explains.

"Thank you.." I take the small box in my hand and look at it.
Hansol leaves the bus and gives me a last look when he gets off the bus.

I waited until I'm home to open the box Hansol gave me. I sit down on my bed and take a deep breath before loosing the ribbon around it. I open it and see a beautiful shiny bracelet. It was of solid material with a pendant on it. The names Hansol and Y/N were engraved. It truly looks so beautiful. I'm trying to put it on my wrist but then I realise that we're not together anymore..
I put the bracelet back inside the box and close it. I can't wear this. I put it on my desk and decide to get ready for bed.

_ _ _

Three days have passed since our break up and I never felt so empty before. I try my best at work to hide my feelings and stay happy but every time I have a break, I go to the bathroom and lock myself in it. I just feel so sad and lonely and I don't want Melody, Simon or the children to notice.
I just finished work and go outside the school building when a girl my age walks up to me.

"Hi, I'm sorry to bother you but are you Hansol's girlfriend? I saw you two together in the park last week and you seemed very close. Oh, and by the way I'm Yeon Hee" the girl says.

"I'm sorry, I think you've mistaken me" I lie.

"No, I'm very sure I have seen you with him! Don't worry, I'm not going to tell anybody. And actually, I was an elementary school friend of Hansol" says Yeon Hee.

She says that she invites me to a coffee or tea and since I have nothing to do I agree and we head to the next coffee shop. We sit down, order our baverages and she starts to tell me about her and Hansol.

"You know, when Hansol was an elementary student, if he liked a girl, he would offer to buy Ddeokbokki for her. He was a sweet boy back then but I haven't been in contact with him for a very long time so I don't know if he's still that cute" Yeon Hee says.

I look down and can't hide a smile by the thought of him buying Ddeokbokki for the girls he liked. I think it's really adorable. We chit-chat for quite a while and I tell her about my relationship with Hansol and that it didn't work out because he's an Idol now and isn't allowed to date, and certainly not an ordinary girl like I am..

"Y/N, I know you have a hard time now and it's a pity that Hansol isn't allowed to date and I know that you feel like you're not good enough, but you don't have to have a lot of money or be a celebrity to date him. Your heart is a skill itself. You're an awesome girl, don't let yourself down" says Yeon Hee and I feel so touched by her words.

"Thank you so much. If I start to want Hansol, it will really hurt. I try to push him off my mind, I want to hold back from him and forget him.." I say.

"I understand how you feel, but if you love someone, be brave enough to tell them, otherwise, be brave enough to watch them be loved by someone else" says Yeon Hee.

It was such a nice conversation with her and she even gave me her number in case I want to hang out with her again because she enjoyed it as much as I did.
On my way home I get a text from Hansol's manager which says that he wants to meet me at the café next to my apartment.

"Hansol is being odd these days. He's doing things that he's never done before. You can't be with him and you know yourself that this relationship will never make sense, right?" the manager says.

"Manager, I heard really nice things from a friend today. She said that my heart is a skill" I put my hand where my heart is. "And I know I'm just an ordinary girl, I'm not an Idol, an actress or any celebrity and I thought I wouldn't be good enough for him because of that, but I don't think like this anymore" I say.

"That's why Hansol fell for you. You really won't do. I will tell you the reality for you two. I will not accept a girlfriend. And he's just playing in a hormone game anyway" the manager says bluntly.

I gulp and try to hold my tears. "I understand. But I still like him, I don't want to lose him."

"Don't you have any pride?" he asks.

"There is no pride in love" I say.

"If you really love someone, you would be willing to step aside from him. How much of a lesson do you want to be taught before this ends? If he keeps dating you, he will have everything he owns right now taken away from him" the manager says serious.

I trap my bottom lip between my teeth, and try not to blink, but it proves futile as I feel the wetness start to streak down my face.

_ _ _

Melody called me just a few minutes ago to tell me that I can take this day off to relax a bit and get my mind off things because she noticed that I seem kind of sad these last days. I get ready at 11am and take the bus to Pledis Entertainment building.
I thought about this for a long time now and I decided to give the bracelet back to Hansol because I can't get over thinking about him without tearing up. I see the box standing on my desk every day and I just have a really hard time to forget him.

I walk inside the building and tell the secretary that Hansol's manager called me to meet him. I show her the manager's number to prove that I'm in conctact with him, because otherwise she wouldn't let me go inside. I ask her where I have to go to get to the manager and she explains that I have to take the lift to the second floor.
On the second floor, I walk down the hallway when I hear the voice of the manager. I tiptoe my way to the room where his voice is coming from and eavedrop on what he's saying.

"You're going around dating a girl you met by coincidence without thinking about your contract?" the manager says.

"So what if I am?" I hear Hansol's voice now.

"I trust you, but I keep thinking that if I trust, I will get stabbed in the back" the managers voice sounds grievous.

"Manager.. my mood is really bad right now. I want to be alone" says Hansol.

"I understand" the manager heads to the door to leave.
I quickly run to the bathroom next to me and hide in there. I wait for some seconds until I leave the bathroom to see if the manager left. And he wasn't there anymore. I go to the room where Hansol is and open the door quietly, when I see him throwing a pillow across the room, punches the sofa he sits on and runs his fingers through his hair. He then notices me standing in the door.

"Y/N? What are you doing here??" he asks.

I take a seat next to him and say "I came here to bring you the bracelet back.."

"Why? Don't you like it..?" he looks confused and sad at the same time.

"I like it, it's beautiful. I just can't have it when I don't have your heart" I say.
Hansol chews on his bottom lip, trying to figure out what to say.

"But I want you to have it. It's yours -" he says and stops to talk for a second.
"Let's be together Y/N. These past days without you have been a torture for me. I really miss you" he continues.

"We can't.. I don't want to love again. I don't want us to break up again. I can't date and break up again" tears slowly roll down my face.

"We're not going to break up again" Hansol says.

"No? How do you know your manager's mind is not going to change?" I raise my voice.

"Why are you like this? Did you become this way because you liked me?" asks Hansol.

I look down and turn around to walk out the room because I can't take it any longer.

"I love you" says Hansol all at once and hugs me from behind.