Sad poems

Tears

My heart is so heavy

a constriction in my chest

a choking feeling,

holding down my breath

my eyes starts watering

forming the tears

i try to gulp them down

hiding my fears

Looking away doesn't help

the treacherous tears streaming down

It might be soon enough

when my strength break down

I am afraid, they won't stop

I am afraid, someone will see

I am afraid, it will break my facade of strength

exposing the weakness within me.

I wipe them with back of my hand

before someone could notice

Breathing in gulps of air

so that my voice doesn't shake

If I am strong, it's because I show you that

It doesn't mean, I am cold and heartless

I save my tears

for the times I am alone

when I don't mind me being weak,

where it doesn't bother anyone,

when i don't have to worry,

for breaking someone else's hope

when I don't have to meet,

the awkward hugs

I save it for the time

when my tears are not judged.............

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P.S. - I don't think tears are sign of weakness, but i do believe sometimes you have to hold them back to be strong for someone else.