Sad poems

Revive

I remember those days when I almost gave up

When I was convinced, I failed

I couldn't do anything better

I was done

I remember when I went out,

I was ready to meet my end somehow

Every time I said bye to someone,

I thought this might be the last time I see them

I tried to come up with possible last words

That could make this feeling less burdened

I asked myself, Will it hurt?

My body said no, but my heart said yes, a lot

I wasn't seeing the after life I wanted

I imagined the after life I will leave for my loved ones

I imagined my mom crying next to my dead corpse

I could see my dad's disappointment in me with my loss

I could see my brothers belief torn apart

I could feel all that in my heart

I would have left lots of questions

I would have made their life miserable

My pain and disappointment was nothing, than what I might have left

I couldn't do it, because they deserve the best

I couldn't let them loose

The things they taught me ever since I was born

I couldn't let it go waste

They made me a fighter

I am not going down without a fight

I want them to be proud of me 

And not ashamed.

This feels like a new birth

I am born again out of splinters

My torn heart is whole again

My love for my family revived me within.