Destroying Love

Chapter 8: Sometimes Words Aren't Enough

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Walking into the bus I see Christian passed out on sofa, I let my pain go for a little tears stream down my checks and I walk towards him, wiping my tears I grab the blanket from behind the sofa and put it on him I move the hair from his forehead and give him a light kiss on the forehead. Im hear crying from a broken heart while the man in front of me is fighting demons that I couldn't even begin to understand, and I let out a sob I let out sob for me, Christian, Aiden, everyone because each one of us are going through something. I sit there and sob while carressing Christians hear who begins to stir and mumble something, the door opens to the bus and the rest of them come in. 

Macy walks in first and then she sees me and her eyes water, she walks towards me and wraps me around her arms, I grasp onto her trying to hold in some of sanity.  How could he just abandon me? Am I over reacting? Why do I feel such betrayl for him having a girlfriend? I mean he has some before, In reality I know why this is hurting me so much it's the look he gives her Aiden has fallen in love with something he has never done with his other girlfriends, and i feel like a sense of loss because in a way it is, I'm losing him and there is nothing i can do about it.

"Im losing him" I whisper out in a sob that only Macy can hear, she doesnt hide the truth when she says

"I know I saw the look, baby girl, I saw" she whispers back

I look up and find the Luke and Ryder are there are staring at me Luke staring between Macy and me sadness in his eyes and Ryder looking at Christian with sadness and regret.

Right when Luke is about to joins us on the sofa the door opens and in walk Aiden he looks at the boys first with a look of confusion and regret, then his eyes look around the bus like he's looking for something and then his eyes land on me, and so many emotions pass through those eyes of his, he begins to walk towards me and Macy hold on tighter while Luke and Ryder start to block his path towrds me. I shake my head at Aiden

"Don't" I croak out

"Izzy" he whispers

"Just stop, I'm done, no more" I whisper out

"What I don't understand" Aiden says confused and nervous

I chuckle. He doesn't understand? Well ok Aiden fucking White i'm going to make you understand.

"you dont understand?" I say with a little more strenght in my voice, the tears have stopped and anger has taken place

"Izzy, just let me explain....." he begins to say but i start to shake my head making him stop and stand up and walk towrds him

"No you don't get to explain now, its too late you made your choice now you live with the consequences" i say

"I.." he tries to speak again but I don't let him because if I don't get this out now he's going to try to sweet talk his way of this and he can't not this time im sick and tired of him hiding things from me when he expects me to be an open fucking book for him, hyportcrite and I tell him exactly that

"Your a hypocrite you know that Aiden, you tell me there are no secrets between us that nothing will come between us we are best friends, and when something is wrong we tell each other, we trust each other. but guess what you broke every single on of them.  For months you had me thinking something was wrong. NO! that I had done something wrong. While in reality i hadn't done anything wrong and you were the one fucking around and lying to me" I spit out

His face turns from hurt to anger quickly, and steps towards me and the space between us diminshes a little bit more.

"I was not fucking around Isabella, Serena is not a fuck she is my girlfriend" he spits out angirly