Destroying Love

Chapter 10: We can't fix what is already broken

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Tears streaming down my face I try to fall asleep to the rythm of the bus.  I can hear people talking outside, but i'm not ready to go outside.  My heart feels like its torn in two, Why the fuck did he kiss me? Why? Does he like seeing me hurt? I know he knows I like him, espicially after the things he said.  Oh god the things he said, they keep running through my head over and over again like a love sick puppy, you still do.  He strung me along! He knew! He knew! and he didn't care my best friend, the love of my life used me, he knew I would do anything for him and he used to his advantage he didn't, he put me aside so easily when he has a girlfriend>

"God Dammit Aiden"  I sob 

"Why" i continue to sob into my pillow trying to hold back my sobs but it's not helping,

"I hate you Aiden" I screamed out 

"Do you hear me Aiden, I hate you" I scream out again 

I hear a commotion outside of the door and then the door slams open and there he is in all is bastard glory Aiden.  He looks like a fallen angel, he's beautiful sleeves of tattoes on both his arms, his glorious messed up like he ran his fingers through it multiple times, his eyes blood shot looking right at me.  I suck in a breath why god why can't you let me forget him, put him behind me, start over.

Hes breathing hard like he just ran a mile and looks at me with so many emotions going through his eyes.

"Tell me you hate me again, Bella" he grounds out

"i hate you" I say with the most venom i can muster, then its completly silent and all you can hear is the bus moving 

He watches me like a predator watches his prey, before he walks in and slams the door shut

"You can't hate me Bella" he harshly whispers out like it hurts to get the words out 

"I hate you Aiden, you betrayed me"  I ground out, my emotions on an all time high i feel like my emotions have always been on all time high where Aiden is concered.

He stalks towards me, and I back up againist the head rest, he grabs on to my legs to pull me down and then climbs on top of me and puts his head in the crook of my neck and breaths me in    like this is the last time he will be able to do this and maybe it is.

I try to wiggle free from his hold but he grips on to my wrists and brings them up above my head and grips them on tight, but not to tight that he will hurt me.

"Get off me Aiden" I say 

"I'm so sorry Bella, I never meant to hurt, you have to believe me......please" he whispers out while he raises his head and looks into my eyes

"I can't believe you, you betrayed my trust" I say back

"How?" he says, with a frustrated voice while he grips on to my wrist tighter and brings his head lower. He continues to talk 

"Because I didn't tell you about Serena?" he says, I turn away because I dont want him to see the tears that are threating to escape my eyes, he is breaking my heart with every word that he is saying.