He's a Keeper

Chapter 12

Felicity

When I walked away from him that night, I left with a part of me gone.

My soul.

It's like...like physically, I'm still here. Scientifically, nothing is missing,

But really...

I'm gone.

Because he broke me.

He didn't even give me a chance.

I got hit by a car that night. I was crying and running and I thought the lane had a red light and it didn't.

I got hit. I was in the hospital for a month.

I hardly spoke.

I just laid there with tears in my eyes.

Everyone had to go back home.

I knew I wasn't mentally stable enough to live alone. I moved in with my parents.

I function now.

I talk now.

I smile now.

But it isn't genuine. It can't be genuine.

I opened up to him. I told him everything. He knew things about me that Lauren doesn't even know.

I walked up to him that day. I walked up to him after that long mental battle I struggled through for three months.

I walked up to him. I took my heart out of my chest, and I handed it to him.

If I think about him enough, I can still feel his arms around me.

I try not to talk about him. It's too painful.

But it's October 12th.

Today is the worst of them all.

Today is his birthday.

He's twenty four today.

I find myself watching his life in photographs.

I keep up with Macy. I talk to her a lot.

The only reason I even talk to her is so I can see if he's okay.

I never in my life planned on him changing his mind.

It's a Sunday. My family specifically decided today to get together and discuss the holidays.

I'm picking at my fingernails, refusing to look at the lock.

Refusing to look at anybody.

Shane never posts on anything.

I look at Jake's profile.

Nothing.

I check everyone's posts.

Nobody's posted about his birthday.

I decide to check Heather's.

She posted a picture of him.

I stare at it.

Nervous, I click on it.

Happy birthday to the best guy I've ever met! I know you didn't start liking me right away, but we've been together for a lovely seven months and I love you so much! Happy 24th birthday baby!

Shane and I broke up seven months ago.

He left me for Heather.

I decide to be a little bitch.