The Sex Goddess' First Love [Published under Sizzle]

Chapter Forty Eight

Hinintay ko siyang matulog bago ako umalis. When I was sure he was already asleep I gently took his arm off my waist and placed it beside him as I sat up on the edge of the bed. I hope my plan works out in my favor. Sana mabuntis na ako pagkatapos nito. I did everything the doctor told me to do, I already stopped taking birth control pills months ago and I was sure I was fertile before we had sex. I was desperate. Really desperate for a baby. It was all I wanted more than anything else in the world. It never left my mind since the day I touched Cassie's pregnant belly and felt the baby move under my hand. It was a great feeling. Paano pa kaya kung anak ko na ang maramdaman kong gumagalaw sa loob ng tiyan ko?

I promised to myself that this would be the last time na gagawin namin ito. We made love all night long and all those times he came inside of me. Sana talaga magwork ang plano ko. I glanced at Tristan who was still peacefully sleeping. I knew I exhausted him as much as he did to me. I still felt sore between my thighs but it was in a good way. I carefully got out of bed, put my clothes on and quietly left his condo unit.

Kung sakaling magbunga ang ginawa namin I would go back to Los Angeles, I would give birth and raise my baby there. Hindi malalaman ni Tristan ang tungkol dito. Wala siyang karapatan. Kinukuha ko lang ang dapat na sa akin noon pa man. 

He called and texted me numerous times after that night but I ignored it all. I was tempted to answer, of couse. I really missed him but I thought mas maguguluhan lang ako kung gagawin ko iyon. I kept telling myself na nakaya ko naman na wala siya sa buhay ko ng tatlong taon and I would do fine without him. I didn't want to complicate things between us anymore. I didn't want to get my stupid emotions involved. I was just after his sperm. 

Three days ago pa mula ng umuwi si Aiko galing sa Los Angeles. That's how I knew how serious she was with Tristan. That was so not Aiko. She wouldn't go out of her way for a guy but she went out of her way for him. She was head over heels in love. Hindi ko siya nasundo sa airport nang dumating siya, in fact we still haven't seen each other. Umiiwas lang ako kay Tristan, I knew he was going to be there too kaya hindi na lang ako nagpunta. She wanted to meet up with me today.

Nakaligo at nakabihis na ako ng makalabas ako ng bathroom. Nagkasalubong kami ni Jason at nagkabangga. He quickly caught me by the waist before I could hit the ground. I just felt so weak these days. Maybe it was because I had been eating so little. Palagi akong walang gana dahil siguro I was still upset about the negative pregnancy test. Yes, I took a pregnancy test about a week ago and it came up negative. I did cry over it and I've been crying alot about it.

"Hey, are you alright?" Tanong sa akin ni Jason at dahan-dahan inalalayan at inupo sa kama.

"Yeah, I just got a little dizzy." Sabi ko.

"You've been acting weird these past few days. Sigurado ka bang ok ka lang?" He asked in a worried tone.

"Don't worry about me, I'm fine." I said with an assuring smile.

"Aalis ka ba ngayon?" He asked and I nodded my head.