LOVE LIFE AND PAIN

Blind Cold Heart

He is too blind to see everything infront of him
Too deaf too understand anyone else's needy word
Too stubborn to admit his wrong way
Ignores his dear children around him

He is a loser but pretends he is so grand
Never he realises how deeply I despise him
I show him clearly but still his ego is too high and still demand all that he wants

Be a man for once not like a little boy
Face the facts we are no longer meant to be together anymore
I am done with your behaviour and evil thoughts
It is craziness about your selfish need
Too tired to pretend I am ok anymore
I struggle each second deep deep inside yet pretend outside
Everything is for the sake of my dear little children
When I want to do is just fight

My anger  cannot be hidden any longer
But I am afraid if I'll show it to you I will be hit
You as a man with no brains will say I am simply a useless woman
But now I am done being your sex puppet and slave
So please stop all your demands for pure selfish lust

Awake from your sleep and admit I won't listen to your false words anymore
I am not your stupid woman or servant or sex slave
I realize I given to many chances to love and respect me in hope
Our relationship and marriage now is more to collapse
You not my master nor I am your slave
Did you never know how I longed to run away
No...you never wanted to know how I felt right now
As you were so blind to see all that I need was love,respect and smile

Are you such a stupid person to realize I always cry because of you
You only want me to be your sex slave and fulfill all your selfish need
As I lay there legs wide open
Feeling empty not feeling any sensation just pain

Sex mean nothing to me as satisfaction is always one way
Find another woman who wants to be your sex toy
I can't take this anymore
This loveless charade
As my soul has already died
And my heart so very cold...

BY SUE
17012017