Loner | e.g.d.

- four -

Today, 02.43am

Evan Dollar: hey r u sleepin

Evan Dollar: gray is

Evan Dollar: i cant

Me: hey i'm not

Me: me neither

Evan Dollar: why aren't u sleeping

Me: me ugh idk

Me: insomnia ig? wby

Me: usually Nina would stay up w me but

 she was tired the whole day

 Evan Dollar: same for gray

Evan Dollar: and insomnia too, 

also late night thoughts

Me: i have em too

Me: twins

Evan Dollar: i already have one

Evan Dollar: what are you thinking about

Me: whatever you're thinking about

Evan Dollar: tell me, talk to me

Me: i don't wanna talk

Me: no one understands

Me: no one listens

Me: no one cares

Me: but everyone leaves

Evan Dollar: how do you know i will

Me: because everyone does 

Evan Dollar: i'm not like everyone

Me: don't let me hope just to be 

disappointed again

Me: i just want an escape

Evan Dollar: i can be your escape

Me:  what if when i cry you aren't there

Me: if i need you and you aren't there

Ethan♥: i would do whatever i could do

Ethan♥: i will find a way to be there

Ethan♥: that day when you came over after Gray and Nina 

started dating, i knew that you're 

hiding something

Ethan♥: but i won't push the buttons

Ethan♥: i'll be your friend anytime

Me: i can't do it

Me: i can't care

Me: i just want to cry

Ethan♥: go cry, it'll make you feel better

Ethan♥: nobody does it like you do

Me: u will have to deserve to be my friend

Me:  i'm sorry for being this way

Me: i just wanna go and hide somewhere

Ethan♥: i'll run away and hide with you

Ethan♥: don't be sorry

 Ethan♥: i promise i will deserve it

Ethan♥: because i feel the same

Ethan♥: and i don't want you to feel like that

Me: i appreciate that

Me: ty for telling me something i won't forget

Me: but you might have to tell me again

Ethan♥: ofc

Ethan♥: you'll see i'm not like others

Ethan♥: i'm a loner, i'm not entirely here

Ethan♥: half of me has disappeard

Me: i feel the same

Me: Goodnight E

Ethan♥: goodnight mannie♥

√√Delivered, 03.27am 

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Mannie's fav song:)

Written: 15th March 2017

Published: 06th April 2017

Words: 384