His Fake Fidelity (Completed) [R-18]

7 : Damdamin

Damdamin

Hindi ako makakonsentrate sa ginagawa ko dahil hanggang ngayon, iniisip ko parin yung mga sinabi ni Ethan kahapon. Kung totoo man ang mga 'yon bakit hindi ko yun naramdaman. Ang manhid ko naman na siguro masyado kapag sasabihin kong hindi ko 'yun naramdaman. Hindi ko naman kase lubos akalain na ganon na pala ang ibig niyang sabihin. And I was just focused on Raven the whole time kaya hindi ko ito namamalayan.

" Hey" Rinig kong saad sa akin ni Ethan ng tabihan niya ako ng upo.

" Lalim ata ng iniisip natin" Saad niya.

" Iniisip ko lang, bakit kailangan mong sabihin 'yung mga sinabi mo kay Raven kahapon. I mean, there's no such thing as courtship between us" I looked at him. Napangiti na lamang siya sa sinabi ko.

" You wanted to know the real reason why, Dra. Torez?" Tanong niya sa akin.

Tumango lamang ako

" Dahil ayoko ng itago pa 'tong nararamdaman ko para sa 'yo. It may sound aweful but that's how I feel about you. And I also know that you're not going to marry him because you just had a deal with him." Saad niya

" Paano mo na laman iyan" I asked him

" Serene told me." He said with a smile.

" Damn that Serene" I whispered to myself. I never thought that she would expose those things to Ethan.

" Paano nasabi sa 'yo ni Serene 'yun." I asked him.

" Serene's my friend too. There was one time, nagkainuman kaming magkakaibigan. She got drunk. I asked about you and she exposed about it instead. I was damn hell happy. Because that would give me a chance. I mean why do you waste your time to something you aren't even happy about. Why waste your time to a relationship you don't even see yourself in the future?" It was a pang in chest. He said exactly what I am standing in Raven's place. The difference is the fact that I feel happy when I am with him. I feel contented. And not everyone tend to feel that way. I looked at him first.

" Would it be fine with you if I decline you ahead of time, Ethan?" I told him. Nakita ko naman ang pagigting ng panga.

" Wala pa nga akong napapatunayan, binabasted mo agad ako." He answered me with seriousness.

" Dahil ito ang nararamdaman ko. Ethen I am fully aware that in the eyes of men, it is clean to say that I am still in Raven's hands. I am in a relationship with him. Kahit sabihin mo pang hindi naman iyon makatotohanan." I told him.

" You want to continue playing in a loveless relationship?" He asked me.

" It's never considered a loveless relationship, Ethan. Because I love him. Mahal ko si Raven. And love has its types. You know that very well" I told him.

" Damn I know it very well, I'm a cardiologist, not a love surgeon." He told me with a touch of mockingness.

" But I am aware that you know what I mean. I'm not a heart surgeon nor a heart therapist either, if there are such words like those but I am completely aware of what I am into, Ethan. I'm an Ob-Gyne. It was way too far from yours but I know about love and everything that comprises it. I hope you understand it." I told him. Akmang tatayo na sana ako ng magsalita pa siya.

" Does he love you back?" He asked. I answered him with a smile.

" I don't ask him to love me back. As long as he gives me the contentment, I am good with that" I told him.

I got back to work after my break. Madami na rin kaseng nakapilang mga buntis. I did my job. I assessed every patient that comes. Ask some medical
History. Depende din kase iyan kung pangilang pagbubuntis na nila iyon. The risk in pregnancy is when the mother has a history of cardiovascular failure. She probably cannot give birth normal. A caesarean delivery is indicated to such condition.