His Fake Fidelity (Completed) [R-18]

19 : Kabalikan

Kabalikan

" Mag-dadalawang buwan na Jord, hindi ka parin naaalala ng hilaw mong asawa" Kasama ko ngayon sina Serene habang namimili kami dito sa may grocery store.

" Hindi ko naman siya puwedeng biglahin nalang." Wika ko. Raven went back to working in the company two weeks ago. Ramdam ko din ang paghihirap niya na hindi manlang maalala ang lahat. He struggles with the thought of not knowing everything. Palagi ko rinsiyang nahuhuling nakatingin lamang sa akin habang malalim ang kanyang iniisip. I know for sure that he is thinking deeply of something but cannot even thought of a thing.

" But you can tell him, Jord. Puwede mo namang ikuwento lahat ng iyon sa kanya. Tell everything to him like you are just telling him the story of your love life" Panenermon sa akin ni Serene.

" She's right Serene. Hindi mo puwedeng biglahin si Raven. Dahil sa ngayon, hindi hawak ni Jord ang pakiramdam niya. He cannot remember Jord, Serene. That means even his heart doesn't remember how deep and madly he is in love with her." Saad muli ni Clara.

" I still believe that even though the mind forgot what it usually thinks off but the heart will never forget what it shouts off. We all know here how madly in love Raven with Jord at hindi ako naniniwalang kalakip ng pagkawala ng mga alaala ni Raven ay tuluyan na ring nawala ang nararamdaman niya kay Jord. That is beyond impossible. Sa ngayon ay baka may naaalala na si Raven but he wouldn't tell it not until his memory comes back fully." Clara continued while we were on the sanitary napkin section.

Simula nong naaksidente si Raven, he never called me Chief. He never called me his usual endearment which I missed off him so much.

Nakakamiss rin pala ang mga bagay na ginagawa niya noon na hindi na niya magawa ngayon.

I miss him calling me Chief.

I miss calling him Boss.

I miss everything.

'Yung mga panlalambing niya tuwing umaga. When he wakes up, he kiss me on the lips before getting up from bed. He makes me coffee when he knows I had a long day. He waits for me to come home from work just for me to cook him his favorite dish. Lahat iyun, namimiss ko na.

I never thought that this day would come. I never thought that I would miss him this much. I never thought that my heart would ache this much to the point that I just wanted to hug him so tight and tell him how much I miss my Raven.

" Sabihin mo nga sa akin, Jord. It has been two months, running three. Hindi mo manlang ba namiss yung hilaw mong asawa? I bet you missed him more than he does" Serene is right. I miss my Raven more than he misses me.

Does he even miss me?

Paano nga ba niya ako mamimiss kung hindi manlang niya ako maalala?

How can he even miss someone whom he doesn't remember?

" Oo miss na miss ko na siya. I miss him more than I even imagine. Nakakamiss yung mga tawa niyang kinaiinisan ko noon. Namimiss ko ang mga paglalambing niyang wala sa oras." Hindi ko namamalayan 'yung mga luhang unti unting tumutulo sa mata ko.

Agad akong niyakap ni Serene ng makita nilang naluluha na pala ako.

" Ang OA ko" I said.

" You're just inlove with him that's why" Tanging sagot sa akin ni Serene.

Ilang minuto ang nakakalipas ng makatanggap ako ng text message mula kay Raven.

He barely texts me that's why. Noon, madalas niya akong tawagan. Even the slightest things he do, pinapaalam niya sa akin, but now, he doesn't seem to think about texting me at all. I don't know his whereabouts now. I don't know if he's even okay in the company. I don't know everything about him now. Umuuwi lang siya sa condo niya kapag gumagabi niya. H doesn't come home with that time. He comes home ahead of me before. He comes home at five even though he knows I'm coming home at seven or even later than that but he still comes home early tapos tatadtarin niya yung phone ko ng mga tawag at text message niya.