SIAH 18

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SIAH 18: CONFESSION (Part 2)


Eunna's Point of View

"H-Huh? A-anong m-mahal m-mo ko? D-di ba b-bakla k-ka?," nauutal kong tanong sa kanya.

"I know mas maguguluhan ka and I know too you'll be mad at me. But.. I am not a gay. Never did I."

Humakbang ako palayo sa kanya. A-anong sabi niya? H-hindi siya Bakla?. Nararamdaman ko na ang pag-iinit ng mga mata ko.


He sigh.


"I am not a gay. N-nagpanggap lang ako para m-mapalapit sayo.."


"A-ano?.. Nagpanggap?" halos walang boses na tanong ko sa kanya.

Oh c'mon! Joke time again isn't it?! Mahilig talagang magjoke ang baklang 'to. Ha-ha-ha pero bakit parang totoo, bakit masakit? bakit? ..... Naramdaman ko ang pagpatak ng luha mula sa aking mata, di na nakatiis eh pati sila nasasaktan na.


"Oo. I am sorry Eunna. N-nagpanggap ako kasi gusto kita, no, I love you. Mahal na mahal noon pa. Si Troy, o 'yong Darren? I just made them all, hindi ko talaga sila gusto ni minsan. I d-don't really like boys and its because of you. Ako lagi ang pumupuno sa locker mo ng mga sinasabing corny na love letter, and I'm also the one who sends you your favorite chocolates and your favorite bear. I am .... Mr. Happy.

'Yong sinasabi ko sayo na letter na ibibigay ko kay Troy o kay Darren, sayo ko 'yon ibinibigay ofcourse, secrectly. And remember when we got late? That I beeped you in the sidewalk? I was late that time because I bought you your favorite yellow roses. Yes, I am the person behind the boquet of yellow roses, at nung nakita kita sa sidewalk actually I was already following you but seems like you haven't notice it that time. Lahat 'yon Eunna, ako. Me, myself. But I am so fvcking coward to confess my feelings, I am afraid so damn afraid na baka layuan mo ako. Natakot ako Eunna, na iwan mo ako at baliwalain ang pagkakaibigan natin kaya patuloy akong maging si Mr. Happy mo. " He bowed his head and he continued talking.


"Lahat 'yon Eunna ako, araw-araw nag-iisip ako ng gagawin ko sayo pero pinamumukha mo lang sa akin na hindi ka interesado sa lahat ibinibigay ko sayo. Everytime that you're trashing or just giving to someone everything I'm secretly giving you, I'm hurting. Sobra Eunna, ang sakit na binabaliwala mo lang lahat ng efforts ko sa'yo pero mas masakit pa dahil lagi mo na lang sinasabi sa akin na hindi mo tatanggapin lahat ng 'yon dahil hindi 'yon galing sa taong mahal mo. Ngumiti na lang ako pero sa kaloob-looban ko durug na durog na ako, mas masakit pa nga 'yon sa pagbaon ng bala ng baril sa katawan.

But, after all of that my efforts is worthy it. I was shocked because you kept the boquet I gave you and the confession you have made. I am the happiest person in the world after hearing those sweetly words from you, that you love me too. It gaves me the courage to do this, all of this. I know Eunna, you are mad at me right now but please..give me a chance. Give me a chance to prove you that I am repenting from what I did to you. Please Eunna, accept my feelings ... Give me a chance. Let me court you and prove to you that I love you.. so much."

He is looking at me--directly into my eyes. Patuloy na umaagos ang mga luha mula sa aking mata, ang sakit lahat ng narinig ko but I never let any words out of my mouths. Ayokong magsalita, ayoko...

"Eunna, talk pleasee.. I want hear you. Pwede ba akong manli---"


*PAK!* (A/N: Capslock para damang dama hihi)


Binigyan ko siya ng sampal na hindi niya makakalimutan, isang malutong na sampal. Alam kong masakit 'yon dahil nasaktan din ang palad ko, pero wala na mas sasakit pa nararamdaman ko, NILOKO ako.


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