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58.

texts (mia & luke)

luke:
mia

mia:
yes

luke:
what the fuck did you do

mia:
luke I don't fuckin know

mia:
I was drunk and not thinking straight at all

luke:
obviously

mia:
I dont need u being a smart ass right now luke

luke:
ashton was literally about to kill me last night

mia:
I dont know what to do

mia:
im so scared to talk to him about it

mia:
he was gonna come here for two weeks during your small break, did you know that? after that I was gonna come on tour with you guys to australia and everything was perfect

mia:
I just fucked it up like I usually do

luke:
it wasn't just your fault, mia. it was both of us.

mia:
you're not the one who told him though!!! that was all me in my fucking emotional drunken state

mia:
we wouldn't be having this conversation if I could just keep a god damn secret.

luke:
you're right. but we also wouldn't be having this conversation if we didn't hook up that night. this is on both of us.

mia:
I wish we could all just forget about this. I love you as a friend, luke. but I don't think it'll ever be the same again.

luke:
we can fix this. ashton loves you too much to just leave you because of a stupid drunk mistake. besides, you guys aren't even dating. it's not cheating.

mia:
it feels like it though. I've loved ashton for so long and I hate myself for doing this to him. even when he didn't even know who i was he was always there for me when literally no one else cared. like, fuck. that's all I can say.

luke:
i would say I'd talk to ashton but i don't think that's a good idea

luke:
let's get michael

luke added michael

michael:
we already have a groupchat together you idiots

luke:
michael please mia is not in a good emotional state right now

michael:
yeah, ashton isn't either.

luke:
man this is all my fault

mia:
michael tell me how ashtons doing please

michael:
he's doing horrible. the show today is literally going to be torturous with the tension that's going to be between him and luke

luke:
maybe I should just fake sick and skip the show

michael:
that is not an option luke.

mia:
im so fucking stupid oh my god

mia:
ashton doesn't deserve me. Tell him he can block me and stop talking to me. I don't care. I just want him to be happy and I don't make him happy.

michael:
you really think ashton would stop talking to you and forget about everything between the two of you because this?

mia:
I dont know. he should.

michael:
he wouldn't though. ashton may be fucking pissed right now, but he still loves you.

mia:
i couldn't even believe ashton loved me before this happened. how am I supposed to believe that now?

michael:
trust me mia, okay? he loves you. and no matter how much this situation is hurting him he will forgive you eventually. I promise.

mia:
about how long is eventually?

michael:
there isn't an exact time he's going to forget all of this, people work through things in different ways. he's going to call you today at some point, and no matter what he says at the end of that call, you both will get back to how things were.

mia:
eventually?

michael:
yes. eventually.

luke:
I knew adding michael into this was a good idea.

mia:
once in a while you have a good idea luke. this was one of those times.

luke:
thanks?

a/n: thank u all sososo much for 90k!! so close to 100,000 reads already, that's insane!! you're all so amazing I just ahhh. next update at 95k!! -m.