Yes, he had been aware that he would have to pay for his crimes at since point. The fact that he had found her meant he was willing to have himself in and, if possible, redeem himself. But now that she was gone, all he wanted to do was follow her.
They wouldn't let him.
He spent days without any contact with another person, which didn't help him in any way. Isolating him just made things worse. He was left alone with his thoughts.
Kill me.
End my life.
Bring me to her.
They couldn't hear his thoughts. They didn't know just how suicidal he was. So they made him suffer in silence.
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