(EDITING) Under A Lonely Moon

Part Thirty Seven

Zak's P.O.V

Although we'd talked to John and discussed the issue, at length may I add, it still wasn't sorted.

I was still getting up at every ungodly hour at night while my mate slept through.

Tonight was no exception. I sighed as I heard one of the twins bawling. It was probably Noah. My

Poor baby boy wasn't well. He had developed a cold and was running a bit of a fever. Micky gave

Me some medicine for him and told me he should be right as rain in a couple days.

I padded over to the nursery but stopped in my tracks when I heard a little voice talking softly on

The other side of the door. A smile spread across my lips and my heart melted. Kasper. I peeked

Round the door and saw my two little boys next to each other. Kasper had somehow managed to

Climb into Noah's cot and was snuggled up next to his brother, talking to him softly while holding

His hand. Tears welled in my eyes as Noah's cries calmed and stopped. He looked up at his big

Brother, his beautiful little emerald eyes sparkling.

Kasper kissed his baby brother gently on the head, 'I'll sleep here so you don't cry. Daddy need

Sleep and Noah do too because you poorly.' Kasper cuddled next to his brother and gently pulled

The blanket round them both.

I watched, tears spilling down my cheeks, as my two babies drifted off to sleep cuddled together.

I backed away from the door before my knees gave out and I fell to the floor. I sobbed. I couldn't

Stop the tears. I felt so guilty. I was such a bad father. My little boy shouldn't be taking care of the

Babies, he should be carefree, not worrying about me needing sleep.

The guilt crushed me and before I knew it I was sobbing far too loud. I managed to stagger out of

The room, clumsily making my way down the stairs, before collapsing on the living room floor.

I sat there in the dark sobbing uncontrollably.

'Zak?'

The lights suddenly flickered to life, momentarily blinding me.

'Zak why are you down here?' Johns voice was a lot closer than before.

I looked up at him and saw his expression turn from confused to concern in seconds. He came and

Sat down next to me, pulling me into his arms. 'Whats gotten you so upset?' He spoke gently.

I sobbed into his chest, 'I-I'm a t-terrible d-dad!' I hiccuped.

'What? Why would you think such a silly thing?' John truly sounded a little shocked at my words.

'Zak your a fantastic father. Your kids love you and you do so much for them, don't ever say that

Again alright, because we both know it's far from the truth.'

I shook my head, 'n-no! I-I am! K-Kasper went I-in and s-stopped Noah c-crying telling him t-that

I needed s-sleep.' I sobbed more. 'How c-can I be a g-good dad I-if my little b-boy is worried a-

about m-me!'

'What? Nova still isn't getting up?' He sounded a little pissed. 'Come on, let's go check on the kids,'

He said as he stood, still holding me in his arms as I sobbed.

I managed to quieten down a bit as we got to the nursery, I didn't want to wake my babies up.

John put me on my feet and walked into the nursery. I watched his face soften in awe at the sight.

'He's such a wonderful big brother isn't he.' John chuckled lightly. 'They're too cute.'

I sniffled, 'he is.' I whispered looking at my babies.

'Right, now to sort out my idiot son.' John grumbled, his expression turning serious as he marched

Out the nursery. 'Nova, get your ass up this instant.' He growled lowly, his voice thick with power.

I shivered, 'j-John, l-leave it til the morning. It's late. I'm sorry I disturbed you.' I whimpered.

Power was radiating from him and I'd be lying if I didn't say it scared the hell out of me.

'No Zak, I'm sorting this out now and that's that.' He growled making me flinch. A loud smack

echoed round the room followed by strings of curses.

'What the hell!' Nova barked, rubbing the side of his face.

'My office. Now!' John growled back before marching out the room.

Nova looked over at me, 'what's this about?' He glared at me.

I cowered in the corner, I shook my head, not trusting my voice.

'Whatever.' He tutted, got up and left, slamming the door behind him. Thankfully it didn't wake

the kids up.

I slid down the wall, hugging my knees to my chest, and sobbed. 'For god sake Zak! Get ahold of

Yourself you fucking idiot!' I growled at myself. I felt so pathetic right now it was unreal.

A soft knock broke the silence before the sound of the door opening. I looked up and saw Micky

Looking over at me with sad eyes. He closed the door gently and came to sit next to me.

'You alright kiddo?' He asked as he wrapped an arm round me, pulling me close to his side.

I shook my head, fresh tears rolling down my cheeks.

'Sshh, sshh, no more of that.' He said as he wiped the tears away. 'Come on, let's get you back in

Bed so you can get some sleep. I'll keep an ear out for the kids so don't worry about them, just get

Some rest.' He scooped me up in his arms and tucked me into bed.

'But,'

'No. Sleep Zak. I'll look after the little ones.' Micky smiled softly.

'T-thank you.' I hiccuped.

'Any time Zak. Now sleep.' He patted my shoulder before going to sit on the chair across the room.

My eyelids grew heavy and I didn't bother fighting them, letting them slide close effortlessly as I

Drifted into a dreamless sleep.