Fit Her Shoe [Gottfred & Lorin]

Kabanata 24

I was not a virgin anymore but I regretted nothing. I willingly gave my virginity to him because yes, I was still in love him, taking revenge was another thing.

I quivered when Gottfred reached a finger to trace my chin down my neck. He jerked and sat bolt up on the bed when he felt something wet there.

“Are you crying? Did I hurt you, Lorin?” he worriedly asked.

I honestly did not know the exact reason why I was crying. Kung dahil ba roon sa hapdi sa pagitan ng mga hita ko o dahil sa sitwasyon naming dalawa ngayon. It hurt and it was sad that we ended up like this. He used to be my protector, but now, he had become my tormentor.

I quickly brushed away my tears as Gottfred gently held me by my upper arms, his expression a mix of discomfort and fear.

“Say something. Are you alright? Did I hurt you?” he asked once more, his voice filled with concern.

I shook my head but tears kept streaming down my face. Inayos niya ang takas na buhok na nagsabog sa mukha ko at saka inipit iyon sa tainga ko. Then, he leaned down and kissed me in my forehead.

“I’m sorry,” he apologized. “Believe me, I really tried for the penetration not to hurt you.”

Tiningala ko siya na may kasamang isang pilit na ngiti.

“I appreciate your concern, but I am really fine,” I reassured him.

“But you are crying. That does not seem fine. Can I get you something? Perhaps a piece of chocolate?” he offered.

Natawa ako sa sinabi niya at nais na pagrolyohan siya ng mga mata. As if a chocolate would help with the sore feelings between my thighs. Losing your virginity truly hurt, but then again, I had to hand it to him for doing his best to be gentle to me.

“Really, Gottfred  Okay lang ako. Napagod lang siguro? At dahil ano, ang laki mo kasi?” sabi ko sa nagbibirong tinig ngunit nanatili ang seryosong tingin niya sa akin, him not finding the humor in what I said.

Hindi pa rin siya nagsalita. Pinanuod ko siyang tumayo mula sa kama nang hubo’t hubad at ni hindi man lang nahihiya. However, the sight made my cheeks to flush and burn with embarrassment.

Nakita ko siyang pumasok sa bathroom at ilang sandali lang ay nawala na sa paningin ko, meanwhile, his absence immediately made me feel cold and empty. Bagay na isa sa mga ikinatatakot ko dahil alam kong darating iyong araw na wala na siya at hindi na siya ang makikita ko sa tabi ng kama.

Napunit ang puso ko sa isiping iyon. I was about to just sleep it off when he came back to me. Umupo siya sa gilid ng kama na may dalang basang tuwalya at bote ng tubig.