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My love,

do not leave me.

No matter how many times I ask for you to go.

My soul,

do not anger me,

for I am hurt enough as it comes.

My mind,

do not abandon me,

for I am crippled,

and unworthy of attention.

I am pleading,

shouting,

screaming!

But no one listens.

No one cares.

What makes me so special?

I am not special.

I am the epitome

of a lie.

A glorified mistake,

brought to life.

Bitterness and resentment,

are all that fuel me,

in my desperate search

for something meaningful.

I was never supposed to be here.

I was born in the wrong time,

wrong place,

wrong mind,

wrong body.

Yet I am here.

Make the best of it?

Show them you can do it?

Why?

What is the point,

when all you will end up with,

always,

is the bottom of an empty glass,

and the end of a broken life?

Withering,

burning,

and so,

so,

miserable.

What is the point,

when all that you feel,

and all you will ever feel,

will end up in sadness?

I despise thinking,

despise love,

and all the happiness that comes with it.

For it ends in nothing,

but an empty heart,

empty mind,

empty soul.

Bitterness,

is the quintessence,

of my cold-hearted,

confused,

life,

that belongs to me,

and me alone.

If I could take all your pain,

yours,

and everyone's,

I would,

if it would only end with me.

But carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders

drags me down,

slows me,

until I am at a snail's pace,

and then I wonder,

Am I all for naught?

It is true.

I am under appreciated,

underestimated,

undesired,

and all rightly so.

Lack of potential,

and everything that comes with it.

Feelings

are nothing,

but your heart,

begging for attention.

Thoughts

are just,

the endless spirals,

of your mind,

digging its own grave.

And now,

I find myself,

in a rut.

For I am weary,

and oh, so cold.

So lost,

and so gone.

I feel everything,

yet I see,

nothing.