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Why?

The light of my life,

my heart,

my soul,

and the root of all my anger.

What have we become,

you and I,

in a world full of lies and deceit?

Why did we change,

for better,

or even worse?

We used to be so close,

siblings,

along with all the rivalry.

Then you left,

and I was alone

with my bitter self,

until you came back.

But when you did,

I had changed myself,

and abandoned everything that we held dear.

This was my fault,

everything that happened.

To you,

and me,

and my breaking,

broken

existence.

Broken friendship,

lost hearts,

shattered among the rocks.

You moved on,

you always knew how to take it well.

But I,

with my grief and guilt,

overwhelming pain,

I suffered, drowning,

in the ocean of what felt

like a million,

living,

agonizing

Hells.

Why,

out of anyone you could have chosen,

did you choose me to be your friend?

Why me?

Me,

the quiet,

stupid,

aggravating one,

back when we didn't know better,

and mixed up playing superheroes and fairies.

I hate what we had,

because it only reminds me of what I lost.

We used to smile,

laugh,

and be perfect.

Now all I see you do,

is smile,

and laugh,

without me.

I hate it!

Hate that you're so happy,

and I,

I'm not.

Yet I am used to it.

The eternal loneliness.

I want to explain,

to scream at you,

for everything that you have done,

for everything I have caused,

but I cannot.

Why, you ask?

I cannot bear to face my consequences,

my decisions.

And now,

when I sit here,

and write my life,

in what can only be described

as a mediocre poem,

I can only feel,

the aching in my heart,

and something that feels

like solitude,

forever,

and ever.

Out of anyone,

anyone,

you chose me.

And I'm still wondering why.