True Survivor (James Yammouni Fanfic)

Chapter 13

Ally's POV

Watching those brown eyes lean closer to my face I knew I couldn't do this, I wasn't ready to do anything with James even if it was only a kiss. It just didn't feel right.

I turned my head away from James, I felt awful for doing it but I wasn't ready.

"I'm sorry James" I said barely audible before standing up and walking to the living room. I sat there and looked out of the window, tears prickling the corners of my eyes.

After 10 minutes of pure silence filling the house,  I heard someone clear their throat in the doorway

"Ally, are you okay?"

"Yes I'm fine and I am sorry about before" I said while wiping the tears off my face

"No I'm sorry, it was a stupid move to make. I hope i haven't ruined anything?"

"Don't worry James, I'm not letting you go that easily" I said smiling a bit

"Good, now lets get this house sorted then we will go back to mine even though it is- James stopped to look at his phone "11:15"

"I think we should" I said while standing up. Before I got the chance to get past James he pulled me in for a hug. Being in James' arms, I felt safe and like nobody or anything could hurt me.

James' POV

Watching Ally walk out of the kitchen I felt awful. What a stupid idea I made. I got up off the floor and sat on the table and texted Jai

"Jai, I fucked up. I went to kiss her and she walked away. I fucked up bad. What do I do? I feel so bad for doing it"

I sent the text to Jai and put my head in my hands. I could hear sniffling coming from the front room but I just thought it would be best to leave her to collect herself before I invaded her space. After 5 minutes of thinking and evaluating my life Jai texted back

"James you haven't fucked up. Just go and talk to her and see what she says,  she won't hate you I know that, just talk to her. Okay?"

I didn't text back, I shoved my phone back into my pocket before going back to the front living room. I stood and lent on the door frame and watched her. Her tear striken face made me feel so bad for my actions. Her long wavy hair was a little messy but she still looked beautiful in my eyes. I cleared my throat a little and she looked up and gave me a half smile. After asking her if she was okay and asking if I had ruined anything between us she seemed a little more happy. I suggested we started cleaning even though it was a stupid time to be doing it but I knew Ally wanted it done. If I had learnt anything from becoming friends with Ally was, when she wanted something doing she would do it as soon as the words slipped out of her mouth, she would be onto the project before anyone else could try and she was always by your side when you needed her.

She walked by me and I pulled her in for a hug, she snaked her arms around my waist and nuzzled her head in to the fabric of my hoodie. I heard her take in a deep breath and breathing out a little shaken. I kissed the top of her head before she moved from my grasp.

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Ally's POV

After nearly three hours of cleaning we had finally finished

"Thank you so much James for your help. It would have taken me longer if it was just me"

"It's fine, was fun cleaning....ish" he chuckled

"What now? We can't go back to yours, Jacob will be in bed?"

"Will he fuck be in bed,  but it's up to you. We can go back to mine or stay here?"

"Stay here, don't fancy walking round L.A at 2:30 in the morning. You can have my room and I will have Jacks seen as he's not here" I said while putting everything back into the cupboard and all the bottles and things in the bin

We walked up the stairs, after I turned all the lights and what not off downstairs.

"Bathroom is that door there, my room next to it and I will be down the hallway" I said while taking James into my room. I walked in and it looked like the way I left it which was a relief.

"Thanks again James, appreciate it" I said while looking at my room

"Its fine, enjoyed it...... maybe not" he chuckled while sitting on my bed.

"Alright, see you tomorrow morning then" I said while walking out of the room and leaving James.

I walked into Jacks room and I wasn't expecting to see what I had. I hadn't been in Jacks room in a while and the last time I was in here it was actually tidy and neat but not any more. Cigarette packets and lighters scattered around the floor. Bottles of empty alcohol surrounding his bed and countless packages of anything everywhere. Not sleeping here then. I was about to walk out when I spotted another note on his dirty desk I picked it up and read it

"Ally, I hope you are well? But I'm hoping you found this note after the other one?!  If so then that other note was a lie. I'm not going away with friends, I have moved away for good with my girlfriend, Lydia. She found out that she was pregnant about a week ago and she wanted to move so I obviously moved with her. Plus Ally I couldn't look after you anymore, I was never sure when you would hit rock bottom again and to be honest it scared me because I care for you Ally and I hurt like hell for me to see you in such a terrible state. But please don't ever forget me and I am SO sorry for not telling you face to face but you were always out with those 5 pricks. But please don't hate me, I have informed your parents about the changes and she is going to try and get in touch with you but I explained that it would take a lot for her to have a place back in your life and she understood that so she is going to try with you. I'm sorry again and I love you Ally. Please stay safe and  I  can tell James will look after you but I just don't like the other boys but I have my reasons to not like them but maybe you will find out one day. Goodbye Ally

-Jack xx

I couldn't hold my sobs anymore. I cried and clutched the note to my chest. James must have heard as he came rushing in and holding me in his arms where I lost all control and just sobbed into his hoodie. We slid down the wall and James just held me tighter.

Someone else who has walked out of my life and someone who I don't want to walk back into my life is going to try but I can say

That's not going  to happen.