Should I really do it? Is it really what I want? Is it really worth doing it? But what if people start to laugh at you again? What if you can't escape from their glares and judges? That's just how it is.
You don't know what I'm talking about? Well I'm talking about hurting myself. Yeah it's pretty fucked up. But I don't want to do that. I'm strong. I ain't weak and the most important think: I don't want to show them that I'm weak. They should just do what they want . I'll just leave them alone and won't do anything. I'll just be by myself, like always. That's how it is.
I don't know if I make it through the whole 2 years but I'll try. I'll try to do my best and maybe I can do it. Maybe I would even surprise myself for being so strong.
It's just tiring to always do the best and never get any good receive but for myself, I think it's the best gift I can ever give. Loving myself. Loving yourself is really important. First you need to love yourself, then you'll be able to love others. So I need to work on that.
I'm pretty good at loving people and trusting them but that's not always good. It happens too fast and then I'm standing there, alone again and everyone is judging me. I'm getting harder and colder towards everyone but I'm protecting myself. I'm tired of this shit. People love it to judge other people and think that they are better than someone but no they aren't. Every person is special in their own way and only because you have that or that, that doesn't mean that you are not special. No one is perfect. Someone like this isn't existing. That's not even possible. But I'm learning to love myself, slowly but surely, and for me I'm perfect how I am. I am satisfied with myself and I even love my body! I hated my body before but now I'm starting to love it.
you don't have to worry about me. I'm alright. These are just my night thoughts of today and I don't know why they became so dark but well. Love yourself is such a great project by bts and I love them so much. I suck at writing but okay that's it for today, bye
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just random thoughts
Random• just some thinking, wondering, prompts etc. • it could get a little dark but don't worry, it's just something i need to get out. • here will be lots of different topics and each one is different from the other, obviously. • this helps me ease my m...
