l i t t l e n o t e s

i can hear my heartbbeat in my ear and i think i might die.

"but i will be there"

but with my heart racing
against the tick tock
of the countdown
that is slowly
eating
away at me 

i regret to inform you
that your presence
will not relieve me
of such agony

and when the final
moment arrives
it'll be over
in seconds

the rush of
endorphins and panic
will have taken over
and all that will be left
is the uncertainty
of my fate

i will not sleep tonight
with this tainted blood
running through my system
and i will not think straight
tomorrow either

so when you say
you'll be there
and it'll be alright,
i don't agree

because you're not
a sedative
and baby
that's all i need