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Paranoia.. (Part 1)

(This is a vent..
Yes. I suffer from paranoia.
It fucking sucks.)

.○:°Evan's P.O.V.°:○.

I'm so sick of this.

I've never been more sick of anything in my life besides this paranoia..

I lie awake, becoming an insomniac each time I hear the slightest sound when it's late.

I always feel like.. something or someone is there.

Like something is going to happen.

I can't help this fear. But I want it to end.

I know I have no reason to constantly be scared.

I tell myself this.

But when something triggers it, I can't calm down.

I'm too scared to even leave my room at night.

And it's worse then ever right now.

I have been trying to sleep, yet I can't.

My mom is out of town.

And someone is walking around in my house.

I'm shaking. I'm crying.

I can't stay calm..

What did that noise come from?

What if the moment I leave my room whatever it was will tackle me to the ground and claw my eyes out?

I need to calm down..

But I can't. I need to. But I can't.

Something is going to happen, I don't know what, but something.

I'm not ready to die....

My sobs are so loud, my neighbors might be able to hear them.

But I don't care about that.

I just...

I want this to be over..