Hopeless I ; Phan ~ completed

~ Ch. 58 ~

~ Dan Howell ~

I wake up before the rest of my house, at nearly six in the morning. Groggily, I pull myself from Phil's warm arms, sitting up and processing the past 24 hours. I smile at the sleeping boy next to me, chuckling to myself and running my hands through my hair. I can't call my life that bad, especially when I've got someone like him. Cause today I woke up with a smile, and that's more than good enough. 

I look around on the bed for my phone, seeing it tucked under my pillow. I pick it up, hitting the on button, only to see the charge symbol come up. I crawl out of the bed, charging my phone and going to take a shower.

 Soon I'm looking at my reflection in the mirror, wearing ripped black jeans and one of Phil's big hoodies. My hair is a curly mess on top of my head, but I never quite know what to do with it, so I leave it. For the most part, I'd like to say I look decent, although I know Dodie won't drop the fact that I've got hickies all the way up to my jaw. My eyes then turn to Phil in the mirror as he walks in, wearing nothing but boxers, hair pushed back in a quiff. "Morning, Pretty boy," Phil mumbles tiredly, wrapping his arms around my waist as I look at our reflections in the mirror.

"Good morning," I smile, turning around and kissing him on the lips quickly. 

"You look cute," He mutters, hands gripping my hips and pulling me closer. "How long've you been up?"

"Thirty-ish minutes," I shrug. "Now, take a shower. I love you, but you stink." I giggle, kissing his cheek and pushing his chest playfully. 

"Thanks babe," He chuckles rolling his eyes as I walk back into my room. I sit on my bed, grabbing my phone and checking my notifications. 

Doddle 🌻, Philly 🦁💘 

Yesterday

Doddle 🌻 -Hey babes - 8:23 pm

Doddle 🌻 -Did you guys get the third essay question?? - 8:36 pm 

Doddle 🌻 -Sleeping, huh? - 8:45 pm

Doddle 🌻 -Typical, okay ill just figure it out myself then. - 9:12 pm

Today 

Doddle 🌻 -Morning my strange, strange friends. - 7:12 am

Doddle 🌻 -Just woke up - 7:12 am

Doddle 🌻 -are u guys by chance, awake?  - 7:13 am

7:13 am - I'm up, and so is Phil, but he's in the shower- Me

Doddle 🌻 - OooO the shower 😉 - 7:14 am

7:14 am -  sexy ik- Me

Doddle 🌻 - speaking of which WHY HAVENT YOU BEEN TEXTING ME?! ITS BEEN OVER 12 HOURS!!! -7:14 am

7:15 am - I was busy- Me

Doddle 🌻 - DOING WHAT MR. ALWAYS FUCKING FREE - 7:15 am

7:17 am - doing.. studying- Me

Doddle 🌻 - real convincing dan. - 7:17 am

7:18 am - okay, I literally just went home and slept.- Me 

Doddle 🌻 -with Phil. - 7:18 am

7:19 am - fuck off- Me

Doddle 🌻 - OOooOO - 7:19 am

Doddle 🌻 

-Ok, Danny, Phil isnt in this chat. - 7:20 am

-SPILL THE TEA - 7:20 am

7:21 am - nope. theres no tea to spill sweetie - 

- really? - 7:21 am

-Ur being serious? - 7:22 am

7:22 am - yeah, really-

-Ugh.. I really wanted to hear some cute shit - 7:22 am

-whatever, ill wait for it - 7:23 am

- even if I dont believe u - 7:23 am

7:24 am - yea whatever - 

-DONT BE LATE TO SCHOOL BABE - 7:24 am

7:24 am - Ill try- 

-OK ILL LEAVE U ALONE - 7:25 am

-sorry for caps lock 😂 - 7:25 am

7:25 am - ok adios - 

-BAI - 7:26 am

I shut off my phone, knowing I'll probably end up telling Dodie at some point today. She's probably already figured it out by now. I shut off my phone, looking up to see Phil walking out of the bathroom, shirtless. I find myself distracted by the perfection I call my boyfriend as he stands in front of the bed, hands in his pockets. I look him up and down thinking, 'god, the things I'd do right now if we didn't have school.' 

God, he's gorgeous, and those arms.. Damn. The purple marks along his collarbone, trailing up along his neck. His hair, still damp and unbrushed, half in his eyes. Those, beautiful blue eyes..  I found myself getting turned on, thinking of the things I'd let this boy do to me. 

"..You didn't hear a word I said, did you?" He says chuckling. It's only then that I realized he was talking this whole time.  I just stare up at him wordlessly, shaking my head no. "You're wearing my hoodie, which leaves me.. without a shirt."

"I noticed." I nod, shamelessly checking him out. "Do we have to go to school?" I ask softly, standing up and pulling him closer by the neck. His hands trail to my hips, slipping his hands in my back pockets. 

"Sadly, my dear, I think we do." He whispers with a smile. I wrap my arms tighter around his shoulders, hugging him. 

Then, soon enough, I'm seated in the passenger seat of his car, looking out the window tiredly. As we pull into the school parking lot I begin to feel a large wave of anxiety bubble up. As nice as yesterday was, I can tell today is going to be.. just short from hell. 

I climb out of the car, swinging my backpack over my shoulders and walking next to Phil into the school. We get to homeroom and I drop my bags by my seat, sinking into the plastic chair. Phil pulls up a chair next to me and Dodie looks at us curiously. "You two did a lot of studying?" Dodie asks, raising her eyebrows at us. 

"Good few hours, why?" I shrug, leaning against the desk. 

"Well, I was just wondering, cause I didn't think this exam included human anatomy.."  

~ 1023 ~