One More Chance | Super Junior

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14th of July.

What should I wear?

Should look like I'm casually going out? Or a fancy one?

No.

I'm already worked up even by just looking at the calendar. This is bad. I might faint.

I might cry.

I sighed as I just picked a presentable outfit. I laid it out on my bed and went to the bathroom.

After that, I dressed up and grabbed  the things I needed before everything goes way back.

"Are you ready, Solji?"

"I'm starting to get annoyed when you call." I said to her.

"Just endure today. Tomorrow, I'll be gone." I looked at her.

"But it's only the 15th."

"Yeah. She will handle the rest. I want to rest for one day. I'll just watch you from afar." She said.

Suddenly, my phone rang and I looked around and she's gone. I answered it.

"Hello oppa?"

[Hey. You're there already?]

"Well, yeah." I sat down on one of the benches as I stare at the night sky full of clouds.

[I hope you're not there for too long.]

"No it's fine. I just came."

[Good. Because I'm here.]

I put down my phone and looked behind me to see him.

He ran towards me and shared a really warm hug.

We talked some more, ate and also played together. Just like when we were younger, I think.

Suddenly, a thought hit me.

"Oppa." I said sadly, choked up.

"Yeah, what's up?"

I looked at him and we stared for a few seconds until I broke the ice.

"I'll be gone for a week. I'm sorry. I was suppose to go today but..." My tears started falling out one by one.

"What? I... Why?"

"Don't worry. I'll be back before you know it." I forced out a smile.

And that's where I regretted everything.

I am now in my backyard, crying in pain and despair. Why did I do that?

I should've waited until tomorrow.

I should've just stayed with him when he needed me.

And all I ever did was... leave...

Finding an excuse to everything.

Suddenly, rain started pouring and im still here, sitting and curled up.

What would tomorrow look like... without him?

I started crying more.

"What more can I do? Didn't I do enough already?"