january 17, 2013
7:17 pm
dear ashton,
you weren't at school today.
you never miss school.
you used to miss school a lot. you told me you were in a bad place at that time and couldn't make it to school sometimes. you never told me why you could never make it to school those days, but i never asked.
so i was really worried when you weren't at school today. i really hope you're okay.
im supposed to go to the doctor tomorrow and im scared. this whole cancer thing hasn't really hit me yet. too me, im still a healthy seventeen year old girl. but i know im not.
i wish you could be there tomorrow. but i wouldn't want you to worry about me.
my mom isn't taking this too well. i can see why, im her last child, her baby, and now i have this deadly cancer inside of me. she's probably more worried than i am. and then i start to worry because i feel like she knows more than i do about this cancer thing.
i just don't want to die.
im sorry, my tears are getting on the paper. sorry.
gosh, ive been crying a lot lately. is this cancer crap supposed to give me extra hormones or something? because that's what it feels like.
i hope you're at the park tomorrow night, because i will really need someone to talk too after my doctors appointment.
and you're the only one that listens.
forever,
venus
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venus || ashton irwin
Fanfiction"you are the stars and the sun and the moon and the clouds but you are also the rain and the thunder and the lightning." a story in which a girl writes letters she will never send to a boy she could never love. [book one in the solar series]
