California Love

Chapter 16

Marlow
Just like the soldiers, that ain't coming home this year
Just like the fellas we miss you so much fr
What about the children, that ain't coming home today
Well here's a message from coast to coast
Cause when them thugs really need it the most thug holiday

Today was the day I was gonna burry my first baby girl and it was taking every ounce in me not to break down and to be strong for my Zee. I customized her casket with a picture of her from when she was seven, it was the only picture I could find of her smiling which made me think about how sad and miserable her life really was. I never knew who her dad was because Amari never talked about him ever which made me think why not. She was the type of baby mama that talk shit bout all her baby daddies so it wasn't like her to keep silent on one. I didn't know a lot of things, who knew how many secrets Amari was keeping but I knew I loved my baby girl and I was gonna make sure I lay her to Rest In Peace meaning I wasn't gonna allow Amari to show up at this funeral with her fake crying and yelling. Maybe it was the anger in me and maybe it was wrong but she didn't deserve to say goodbye she was the reason she wasn't here alive breathing anyway. It was so many teachers, teenagers, and strangers that attended the funeral I decided not to make it only close family and friends because I wasn't sure who Zee knew or connected with. I sent out a message letting everyone know I wanted them to wear white not black because white meant pure and I know my baby was still pure. The white doves began to fly and J'ah began to sing... "I fought for you' the hardest it made me the strongest
So tell me your secrets, I can't stand to see you leaving... but heaven couldn't wait for you, no heaven could wait for you... so go on home" the moment he song these lyrics I felt so weak as if I couldn't hold it in any longer. I Felt like it had just hit me that my baby girl was murdered and I was saying goodbye to her for good. This song fucked me up before I could control the tears they began to flow and the more I wiped the more they fell. My heart was pounding in my chest my airway began to close up as if I was having an asthma attack or something but I wasn't, I was just breaking down literally breaking down to my knees. I found myself on my knees crying like a baby rocking myself back and forward asking god repeatedly why? What could Zee have possibly done to deserve to die like this and this early. Her life had not even begun yet but yet it was already over, I know I'm not supposed to questions god will but I was beginning to. I felt I had tried to do everything right in life to avoid bad karma so I began to question my beliefs in god I mean I grew up in a church so I had morals it's just some things just wasn't adding up to me. Jah voice was literally breath taking I didn't know he could sing until he ask me if he could sing for me at the funeral. I blame him for my terrible break down but I wouldn't of had it any other way. When it was time to say goodbye I watched how everyone pay their respects leaving only white roses on her casket no other color. That's when I noticed Bunz in all black with two built guys guarding his every move. Why the hell was he here he didn't even know Zee and not just that he disregarded my wishes to wear white and instead he wore black. I watched him make his way to say goodbye and unlike everyone else he drops three red roses, I just wasn't in the mood for no bull shit today so I let it go. I'm sure he probably heard last minute and figured Cutty would atleast be here for me but he wasn't and I was kind of angry about that too honestly. Shae was here for me every step of the way after everyone left it was just me and her standing at the casket. "Baby it's gone be okay she at peace now" she said rubbing my back and looking into my eyes. Her hazel eyes was so assuring I couldn't look away from them  and I couldn't say anything either so I just stood there caught up in her trap.

Milan

     It was almost that time for me to get ready to go make my easy money and I had been home waiting for Hazel to come get this screaming baby. I don't know what the fuck made her think nana could handle not one but two fucking babies. Only one cried uncontrollably but still what the fuck was she thinking. Nana took the little girl since she wasn't as bad to deal with just give her some food and turn on some cartoons and she was good hell. I couldn't listen to my music at all he wouldn't stop crying so I figured I'll just let him scream his self to sleep while I find me something sexy in my closet. I pulled out this pink and white lace lingerie Cutty surprised me with the first time we fucked. He told me it fit my body perfect and made me look older than I was. Just then I heard a knock at the door so I threw my robe across me but not in time, it was Hazel coming to get the baby who had just drifted off to sleep. "Hey Mimi..ooh that's cute I have that same exact one" she say winking her eye at me like she wasn't gone tell on me or something. I smirked at her until she got the baby and cleared my room. I shut the door and grabbed my ringing phone it was Kandis. "Hello" I answered. "Meet me at the address I text you in thirty minutes" she hung up. I grabbed my things and change my clothes because that address was not on my side of town. I called a Lyft and left the house while Nana laid down for her nap. As I rode in the Lyft I could feel my heart sink to my ass and my stomach immediately became gassy. I cracked my window so my driver wouldn't smell me release the air off my stomach. I was so nervous I felt like I was going to shit on myself I needed something ANYTHING to come me down. When we finally pulled up to the address it looked like a house party or something was going on. I walked up the long drive way and I notice two built guys standing next to the door. I walked inside the big spacious house and there was nothing but naked women of all kind literally black, white, Hispanic, Asians, twins, bald head ones, curly hair ones and even midgets. It was atleast fifty different women naked running through this mansion and they all had nice bodies in their own way. Even the midgets had fat asses and was twerking better than me but seem like everyone here was floating in their own world like they were all high off something. I usually don't do drugs but I seriously needed whatever they had to calm my fucking nerves and get this over with. Kandis came out of nowhere and walked straight to me holding out her hand so I grabbed it and followed her. She took me into a bathroom that looked to be big enough for a bedroom and closed the door. "You nervous?" She asked as if she could read my mind and body language. Before I could answer her she was shoving two pills in my mouth without my consent. I swallowed the pills with my saliva and did as I was told. She only had two rules 1. Don't say no to any of big zaddies request and 2. What happens here stay here. I nodded my head signaling I understood everything she was saying and got changed into my lingerie. I followed her out the bathroom and the pills seem to work fast or something because my vision seem to get a little blurry and the sounds now echoed in my ears. We finally entered the room and there this big bald guy with tattoos that covered his entire body. He lay back in this master king size bed smoking a fat cigar in nothing but red silk draws. I felt so relaxed that I began to kiss Kandis in the mouth while rubbing on her boobs. She was wearing a red lace bra so I unhooked the back and let it drop to the floor I stopped to admire her beautiful boobies and her perfect size pierced nipples. I took her left nipple into my mouth and sucked on her soft perky nipple while massaging her right nipple with my hand. She began to moan quietly into my ear then sliding her fingers into my panties and fingering my pussy. The more I sucked on her nipples the more she fingered my pussy and my juices began to flow uncontrollably. She then scooped me up and lay me flat on the bed, I never knew she was so damn strong. She kissed me from my neck down to my belly button before removing my panties. Above my head I could see the old man play with his self but watching us in silence. So I turned over onto my stomach with my ass in the air and crawled slowly between his legs and ordered him to reveal his self. He did as he was told and took another puff of his cigar so I began to lick the tip of his penis. It was so hairy but whatever pill Kandis gave me made my tongue completely numb so it didn't make a difference.  I took his penis into my mouth and I felt Kandis tongue on my clit and her thumb on my Booty hole. It was something new but it felt so good to me and I began to suck the skin off his dick and he placed his hand behind my head forcing my head down and shoving his dick in my throat. After sucking his dick for fifteen minutes he never said anything to me so I couldn't tell if I was doing a good job. So I forced my head up and told him to fuck me from behind he did as I said and I lay Kandis back with her legs open and began to eat her pussy and suck on her clitoris. They both began to moan together so that let me know I was satisfying both of them at one time. I threw my ass back harder that he couldn't keep up and I flicked my tongue and fingered her pussy until her legs tightened around my neck and she yelled I'm bout to come. He exploded inside of me and Kandis squirted on my face while her body shook as if she was having a mini seizure. He slapped my ass before laying back and told Kandis to add two more stacks to my money she hopped of the bed and looked at him as if he had disrespected her. I thought her pay was supposed to be three thousand not five thousand she say sounding annoyed with him. Before I could look back at him he was hauling of the bed bitch slapping Kandis to the floor then kicking her in the side. "BITCH I SAID ADD TWO STACKS FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU! SHE FUCKED YOU BITCH YOU AINT FUCK HER" he spit at her. This would be the first thing I hear him say throughout this whole crazy experience. "GET THE FUCK OFF MY FLOOR WITH THAT BLOOD AND CLEAN YOURSELF UP" he say pointing to Kandis shaking on the floor holding her lip and nose. She got up slowly still holding her face and began to walk to the bathroom. "BITCH I SAID GIVE HER THE FUCKING MONEY DONT PLAY WITH ME"  he said as if he was warning her for the last time. She walked to the safe and put in the code and handed me five stacks with rubber bands around them. He handed me an envelope to put my money in and thanked me for my service. I put on my clothes and grabbed my shit to call for a Lyft, I was so high it felt like I wasn't gone never make it to the front door through all the naked bodies. A big guy from the door scooped me up into his arms without saying a word and walked me out of the mansion and put me into the Lyft, he even buckled my seat my belt. I heard him threaten the Lyft driver about my safety and then he was gone. The ride back home was quiet and all I could do was think what did I just do and telling myself I just made five thousand dollars with no effort.