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Part 92: both secrets

Shawn:

"So are you going to tell me or not?" I chuckled as I turned towards her. I finished eating long after Adriana, for she devoured hers like a bear going in to hibernation. But that's what I love. She's not afraid to be herself.

She took a deep breath before turning towards me as well, taking my hands in hers as she threw her one leg over mine. I let go of one of her hands, placing mine down on her thigh.

"Okay, so you know how you've been asking questions about my mum and Keegan, why were not that close or anything..." I nodded, looking at her with my eyebrows slightly furrowed together.
I know I asked her about it but I never truly knew there was a story behind her not being that close with family. I have family that I'm not close with but that's just because... we're not close.
Not too deep of a story behind that.

"Well..." She chuckled, "Keegan isn't my real brother and my mum.. she's not my mum." My eyes grew big and I had to shake my head at least two times to fully take in what she just said. I laughed, "Wait what?" She smiled as she looked at me.
"When I was little my dad married this woman, my mum you know. And Keegan was her son. So he's like my stepbrother."
"But doesn't that make your mum your stepmother?" She nodded, but she also shook her head.

"I never knew my actual mother. So I guess that makes her my stepmother, but because I never knew my own... she's just my mother. She raised me, but when I found out that she's not my blood relative, nor Keegan. I kind of pushed them away. Especially after Mason."
I nodded, taking in all the information.
"And I know this will sound completely stupid of me, but I really want to meet her..."

"Your real mother?" She nodded. "That's not crazy Adriana, you deserve that."
"I'm just afraid she gave me to my dad for a reason. What if she's disappointed?" She whispered, fighting the hurt in her eyes.
"Wait, why on earth would you think that?"
"I don't know ju-" But I cut her off.
"No Adriana! By all means I think she'll be the proudest parent ever when she sees you. See you for who you are now and what you've become." She smiled at me, but only faintly. "Thank you." She said softly.

"And even if she is, it means nothing because she wasn't there to see even the slightest bit of what you went through. And I love you. So yeah." I chuckled, making her smile again before she kissed me. "I have you and that's basically all I need." I kissed her again.

We got really comfortable with each other over the past what, ten months, that we've been together. We're graduating next month, and I never though I would ever say that or hear the proud sound in my parents and sisters voice when they congratulate me on that.
It's all because of her that most of the broken parts in my life, the most important ones, are now back together. Closer than ever and sticking together.
She's my girlfriend, and I never thought I'd get to say that about her.

She was way more upper class of life than I was, but when I got to know her I realized she was the same as me. We're all the same, we just classify people and give them higher positions because we feel we need to do that.
But underneath everything, we're all the same.

"So that's my secret." I looked in her eyes.
"I'm 19!" I exclaimed and quickly leaned in to kiss her again but she laughed, pushing me away. "What! You're 19?" She looked at me with eyes big and jaw dropped to the ground. "Yeah." I chuckled nervously. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"Cause it's embarrassing. When I moved schools they had to put me in a lower grade because I didn't finish the previous year. And when I tell people they think I plucked a year, like I failed." She didn't say anything.

"Are you mad?" She shook her head with a slight smirk on her face. But Adriana can't smirk, making it ten times more cute when she tries to. "It feels kind of badass dating an older guy." I laughed at her, "But why did you tell me now? It doesn't matter anyway."
"Because you told me something you never mentioned before and I felt pressure of hiding a secret." She cracked up as I laughed at her laughing. "At least you know."
"Yeah, not that it changes anything." She cupped my cheeks, giving me a deep kiss.

Both of us still smiling in to the kiss before pulling away and starting to clean up. I feel kind of bad for her, that she doesn't know her own mother.
I hope they can meet, if it's ever possible. I can see that she has a missing piece, and that is one spot none of me can fill.

She needs to meet her mum, or just know a bit more about her.