Over Again || Jc Caylen

Chapter 15 || Depression and Maybe Feeling Better?

//revised//

LISTEN TO 'INVISIBLE BY HUNTER HAYES' ☺️

~Valerie's POV~

I went strait to my pocket and took out something I really needed, a razor, I know it's really weird to have one in your pocket but I don't know why I always get the feeling I need to. I went strait to the bathroom and did something I haven't done in three weeks, cut. I did one and then another one, I end up having five new scars, that's when I hear the door of the room open, shit Jc. I quickly clean my scars and but the bracelets back on.

"Are you ok?" he asks when I get out of the bathroom

"Yeah, I just needed the bathroom" I said giving him a fake smile, I hate giving fake smiles to him oh my god!

"You sure?" he asked getting closer

"Yeah" I said

He took my wrist and moved the bracelets up and saw the scars.

"Vale?" he asked

"I'm sorry" I said almost whispering

"Why? vale-" I cut him off

"I'm sorry ok? Jc I'm sorry" I said tears coming out of my eyes

He hugged me and said "its fine but when you feel like you need to again, please call me ok?"

"Ok" I said {sorry I saw tfios yesterday😁}

We stood there for some minutes and then Jc spoke again

"They left" he said

"what?"

"Your family, they left" he said

"Oh" I said, it actually hurt me to know that they didn't want to see me anymore

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Jc and I were now with the rest of the people that were there, I wasn't in a mood to play or do anything but I was still there because I hate been alone. I got really tired of their screaming, yes screaming; they were all screaming and I got a little annoyed. I went back inside and sat down in the couch just playing with my fingers, then my phone rang, it was a text from Fiona.

'Val, were going there now don't worry' it said

I really didn't bother on answering, I didn't want to see anyone, no talk to anyone. I really wanted to cut once more, but I knew I couldn't so I just decided to go out and walk for a little while, I took my phone and went outside.

I was walking down the street, just thinking, thinking about what will be this world without me, without Valerie, I really think the only person who could maybe, and just maybe miss me is Jc. I wish I was invisible right now, I want to break something, take someone's head of and throw it I the ocean! yes maybe I'm exaggerating right now but that's all I wanna do, I want to be alone, I found a little store and there was a guitar, I asked if I could take it for a minute, I took it and just started singing

Crowded hallways are the loneliest places

For outcasts and rebels

Or anyone who just dares to be different

And you've been trying for so long

To find out where your place is

But in their narrow minds

There's no room for anyone who dares to do something different

Oh, but listen for a minute

Trust the one

Who's been where you are wishing all it was

Was sticks and stones

Those words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone

And you're not invisible

Hear me out,

There's so much more to life than what you're feeling now

Someday you'll look back on all these days

And all this pain is gonna be invisible

Oh, invisible

So your confidence is quiet

To them quiet looks like weakness

But you don't have to fight it

'Cause you're strong enough to win without a war

Every heart has a rhythm

Let yours beat out so loudly

That everyone can hear it

Yeah, I promise you don't need to hide it anymore

Oh, and never be afraid of doing something different

Dare to be something more

Trust the one

Who's been where you are wishing all it was

Was sticks and stones

Yeah, the words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone

And you're not invisible

Hear me out,

There's so much more of this life than what you're feeling now

And someday you'll look back on all these days

And all this pain is gonna be invisible

These labels that they give you

just 'cause they don't understand

If you look past this moment

You'll see you've got a friend

Waving a flag for who you are

And all you're gonna do

Yeah, so here's to you

And here's to anyone who's ever felt invisible

Yeah, and you're not invisible

Hear me out,

There's so much more to life than what you're feeling now

And someday you'll look back on all these days

And all this pain is gonna be invisible

It'll be invisible

I finished and gave the guitar back to the man people in the store started clapping, I thank them and started walking away, back home. That's when I realize that music made me feel better, singing really made me feel free, that's what I needed; to be free.

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Not one of the best chapters but yeah☺️ sorry I'm really having a hard time lately and I couldn't update yesterday😔

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