Broken

Payton

The reason why I keep my feelings to myself is because I can't explain them
          -anon

Sitting in this boring ass room, with boring ass people, at least there's only... let's see... oh right! 2 whole fucking hours left, hopefully sooner, usually we get let out early "so, find a partner and tell them your name and 3 facts about yourself" the instructor said interrupting my thoughts, I just sat there, playing with my pencil
I wonder if I can stab myself with this
I looked up and locked eyes with a boy "you 2, your partners" he said, I groaned and the boy got up and walked over to me "I'm Caleb" he said "I'm Payton" I responded going back to playing with my pencil "why ya in here? You're to pretty to even have tried committing suicide" Caleb said resting his elbow on my "desk" I quickly shooed his arm away "my dad is the reason why I'm here" I said looking up "what happened?" He asked "abuse. And shit" I mumbled "I see, well, tell me some stuff about you" Caleb smiled, wow, he's happy and a fucking suicide.. club... thingy, i don't fucking know what it's called "alright" I started "I'm 15, I play guitar sometimes and I'm confused on why you're fucking bubbly like a Starbucks barista" I said "funny. Well, here's some about me" Caleb started "I'm 16, I tried killing myself again yesterday... uh, oh. I hate my parents" he continued, still smiling "why are you still smiling. This isn't a place to smile" I rolled my eyes "because, I'm looking at a pretty girl" he smiled "well, for 1. I'm not pretty and 2. Stop staring" I said "I'll try to stop. But, you are pretty" Caleb said, I just rolled my eyes "alright, sit down everyone" the instructor said, Caleb turned around and sat down in his desk "alright, so, i have one more thing to explain and then you guys will be dismissed" the instructor said, oh, right, we have to call him Mr. Densey, yeah, his last name is Densey "so, you guys are all here because you have tried committing suicide, now someone in here, not going to say who, but they decided to go against everything we've talked about and tried killing themselves yesterday" he continued, my eyes shot at Caleb holy shit, he just got called out in front of the whole class "anyway, you guys are dismissed" he said, everyone got up and left, I knew my dad wouldn't be picking me up, so I'm going to have to walk home, great fucking day right? I started walking "hey, Payton wait up!" I heard Caleb, I stopped and waited "your parents ain't picking ya up?" He asked "no, my dad isn't, and my mom left" I said looking at the ground "oh, mind if I walk you home?" Caleb asked "I don't care" I shrugged "cool... so, when you... tried.. how did you do it? If.. you don't mind me asking" Caleb asked politeness? Wow "well, uhm. You know that bridge by 5th?" I asked "Yeah?" Caleb said "yeah, I was about to jump. But then, my boyfriend at the time ran up and took me off the ledge, you would not believe how mad I was at him" I explained "wow" Caleb said "right.. uhm.. I don't really want to go back to my house" i said "I could... phone my mom... and ask if you could stay for a bit...." Caleb offered what the fuck bro. Stop being polite "uh, yeah, sure... thanks" I said, we stopped walking and Caleb took out his phone. A fucking iPhone 6s!? Fuck! All I have is a shitty flip phone.. thing, it sucks. Once I tried to smash it on the ground but my dad stopped me. Yeah, that's when the abuse and shit started "aight, thanks mom, yeah yeah, we'll be there soon" I heard Caleb say as he shut off his phone, i didn't realize I was still staring at his phone "like my phone I see" he laughed "huh? Oh uh.. yeah.. I do" I said "you look like you've never seen an iPhone before" Caleb said putting his phone away "well; I haven't in person" I shrugged "what kind of phone do you have?" He asked "just a stupid flip phone, which I tried breaking once" I said "do you have a number on it?" He asked "uh.. yeah.." I said "can I have it? So I can talk to you when we don't have "group" and stuff?" He asked uh.... fuck... do I or do I not? Fuck! "Uh.. I'll think about it" I said, soon we turn around and walk towards Caleb's house, I wonder how far it is.
Soon we reached his place.

Looks much nicer than mine

We went inside. Caleb introduced me to his parents and we went upstairs.
We talked about rainbows! And ponies! And shit! No. We talked about life. We somehow got into a deep conversation