Broken

caleb

It's hard to let go of the past
When it keeps repeating itself~kymara

As the officer announced andrew is dead and is now officially dead payton turned into my chest and cried. I know how much it hurts to lose someone I lost my sister to and accident and it hurt so Frickin bad I loved her so much. Sometimes I think that why I like payton is because she looks like my sister (not like that you pervs he likes his sister in a sisterly way) I just feel a strong bond between us and I can't not want to protect her maybe the reason I love her is because u don't want her to die like my sister, maybe this could be my second chance to not make a mistake and possibly save her cause that's all I want to do.

Now ik I don't just love payton because she looks like my sister but because she came with her own insecurities and honestly she is amazing I just wish I met her outside that stupid group, cause maybe then I wouldn't half to have a panic attack everyone I'm not with her. Everytime I'm away from her I'm scared and terrified taht I might lose her lose the most important thing in my life. I don't want that to happen.

I close the door and guide payton back towards the couch and we sit there huddled into eachother just received teh bad news. " sometimes I wish to be alone during these things but for some reason I wanna be with you" spoke payton in a hushed tone. " I wanna be with u too payton I'm sorry this happened to you I hate seeing u like this" I replied. Soon I here faint snoring and I realize taht she has fallen asleep I lay us down on the couch and quietly dose off myself.

I wake up to heat leaving me I groan wanting it back so I grab at it and I pull payton down back into me. "Caleb we need to get up I half to pee" I hear that and my eyes shoot open letting her go before she "go's". I sit up and wait for "my personal heater" to come back. She walks in with a completely different outfit on and it looks Hella good I had to advert my eyes before the plot stiffened. I get up and walk over and grab her waist pulling her to me whispering you look beautiful in her ear. " Caleb stop we half to go to the group" ahh " fuck that place I wanna lay around with you" I say moving my face to the crook of her neck. " not now Caleb let's go" bu bu but " I can't go" " why not" she asks a little rushed " cause u haven't taken your med yet"?. I said she sighed and walked into the kitchen I grab my shoes and lace em up. She walks back out " are u ready now" she says with sass.

We reach the group not even bothering that the whatever u are man is saying to us because we're late. I sit down beside her and look up. I drift off not caring until I hear " Payton why are u not paying attention in here" I snap my head backwards to look at her " I'm just not feeling well can I go home" Payton imeadiatley says " fine but as long as you have someone go with u" I was about to yell I'll go when some ass butt yelled it, but thank chuck that the guy didn't let it happen I stood up and walked out with payton.

We reach her house and we just collapse on the couch, not even 30 minutes ago we were right here. I feel payton move closer to me so her head on my chest I move my arm around her so it slightly hangs just above her waist. I start to draw circles into her hip she shudders a bit but calms down and she starts to do the exact same thing on my chest. I grab her chin and stare directly into the mesmerizing grey abyss I Lean in and kiss her just like the first one sparks went off and a  shiver ran down my spine in pleasure. It gets a bit more heated she is now on my lap straddling me while my hands are lightly going down her back. Bit I quickly stop knowing that we just got together she pouts but understands aswell we sit back and watched a movie for the rest of the time being.