Broken

Payton

I wish I could explain your eyes and how the sound of your voice gives me butterflies. How your smile makes my heart skip a beat and how every time I'm with you, I feel so complete

We broke apart and we looked into each other's eyes

Damn.. I'm hella in love with him...

Caleb leans towards my ear and slightly whispers in a soft tone "I love you Payton" which sent a shock right down to my heart. I could feel the darkness that surrounded it slightly break... for once... I feel.. happiness....

Caleb leans back but I grab his collar and pull him in, kissing him passionately, fireworks went off like crazy and I loved it, I love this moment... I loved him..

We pull apart and look into each others eyes staring deep into his amber eyes as he looks into my steel grey eyes, we both smile, I lean into his ear so close I think he can feel my breath.. I whisper " I love you Caleb" before i pull away.

I then realize that my dad still doesn't like Caleb "Caleb. You have to go.." I said "why? The movie isn't even finished yet" Caleb said as we got up "my dad still doesn't like you,  when he comes home he'll k-..." I was interrupted by knocking at the door, I walked over and opened it, there stood 2 officers "hello, are you Payton Meiyer?" The one asked, I nodded "your brother, Andrew got into a car crash..." he paused, my eyes widened and Caleb walked over to me and out his arm behind me "I'm sorry... he didn't make it..." they continued, I turned and cried into Caleb's shirt, he rubbed my back soothingly "we called your parents to identify the body down at the morgue" they said and left, Caleb closed the door and took me back to the couch, I just stayed in his arms, curled next to him, softly crying.

~~~next day~~~
I woke up on the couch next to Caleb, I looked up and saw him still sleeping, I sighed and reached to grab the T.V remote, turning on Netflix and put on click, i set down the remote and stayed curled up next to Caleb.

I was so into the movie I didn't notice Caleb wake up "well, good morning" he yawned, I looked up at him "morning" I smiled looking back at the T.V "we have that stupid club today..." Caleb sighed "I know.." I frowned "way to spoil my movie watching time" I continued causing Caleb the playfully role his eyes "get dressed and let's go, and don't forget your medication" Caleb said, I groaned and went upstairs and changed

I came back downstairs "Caleb, you can uhm.... where Andrew's old clothes..." I said walking into the kitchen "you sure? I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable because of last night.." Caleb said "it's your choice" I shrugged grabbing my anti-depressants from the cabinet, input 3 on the counter and the rest back in the cabinet and grabbed a glass and filled it with water and took the pills, I dumped the rest of the water in the sink "I'll just... uhm... wear what I've got on, if that's ok" Caleb said, I nodded and we left, I didn't feel like eating this morning

Did dad come home last night?

Caleb and I got to the group thingy and went inside, we sat down not making eye contact with Mr. Densey or the class.

"Alright kids, today I have an announcement" he paused and I could tell he was looking at me, I felt all eyes on me, except Caleb's, I raised my hand not looking up "yes Payton?" Mr. Densey said "I'm not feeling well, can I go home?" I asked "someone will have to go with you" he said

Shit...

"I'll go" I heard someone say, someone... who wasn't Caleb... I looked over at Caleb "please" I mouthed "I'll go, she has trust issues and I know where she lives" Caleb said "then it's settled, Caleb you'll go, Damien, you'll stay here, I heard the Damien kid groan as Caleb and I left "are you really not feeling well or were you just nervous" Caleb asked "I'm not feeling well but I'm also nervous" I shrugged, Caleb nodded and we kept walking "I honestly don't wanna go home, can we go to a park or something?" I asked "nope, you aren't feeling well so you're going straight home" Caleb said, I groaned and we walked to my house.
I was scared to go home. You see, my dads the abusive type that doesn't care about anything but himself. So he don't care if you're sick or fucking hurt, mentally or physically.

Caleb and I stepped inside and I immediately ran upstairs, dropping my bag by the couch, I could hear Caleb walking upstairs so I had to do this quick....
I went into the bathroom and locked the door, I grabbed a box under the sink in the cabinet, I set it on the edge of the sink and opened it and pulled out a razor and cut

Once because of dad...
Once because of Andrew...
Once because I hate this world...

I threw the razor away and put the box away, I grabbed a nearby bandage and wrapped the cuts and pulled my sleeve back down and stepped out "bed" Caleb said, I rolled my eyes and walked to my room and laid down on the mattresses I call a bed. Caleb covered my with a blanket and sat beside the bed, stroking my hair until I fell asleep