Thoughts From a Spec in the Universe

Cling

I hate when people touch me, but I can't seem to let go
Whenever you ignore me, glance or look away
I feel alone
Am I worth nothing to everyone
Then your attentions back to me and I believe you will not leave, but can't help feeling like it's all a lie
Maybe not but I start to feel dead inside and like I want to cry once you turn away
Once you talk to someone else once I start to feel even a little bit left out
I hope that it's anxiety but for all I know it's just me
I know you don't belong to me but I can't help feeling betrayed
Yes you can have other friends just promise you won't leave me...
But then you do...
I was just your stepping stone to steal my other friends away
I am now alone even if you all smile and laugh with me
For I know that they mean more to you then me
Despite all my efforts I am left standing alone
Feeling blue
Feeling lonely without any of you
Why am I so clingy?
Is that what turned you away?
I can change!
What do I do?
Anything to please you!
What a laughing stock I am clinging to others with both hands
I have changed and yet you still turn to run
I will change again!
Is that what you want?!
Change my hair!
Change my clothes!
Change me personality!
AM I GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU???
WILL YOU BE MINE FINALLY???

A/N: From my point of view people use me and become closer friends with my friends then me causing them both to grow distant from me. I am always the third wheel. I try everything but nothing seems to change.