Im sorry (nash grier and cameron dallas)

Ch 16

I opened the door to my home not caring if anyone was home. I wasn't crying anymore I was just pissed off because he promised, and to me a promise is very important.

I ran to my room and locked the door. I was emotionally frustrated because I can never keep a friend ship or a relationship. it's just not fair because I'm always the one to try so hard to keep the friendship/relationship going but I feel like sometimes Cam doesn't care.

I went to my dresser and took out that one little black box. the one who would make me feel real and not numb. I went to the bath room and closed the door, I opened the box and picked up the newest blade that I got from a razor that I took apart.

I sat in the corner of the bathroom thinking about all the pain that cameron has caused me. and that I got to work putting the sharp cold corner to my wrist and slicing my skin. one cut after another. I can't stop, I just can't, it just feels so good, it's painful but it's a good pain it makes me feel like a real person.

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I heard a knock at my front door.

Shit.

There was blood everywhere. on my legs, clothes, and my hands. I looked down just now realizing that I made 50 new cuts.

My eyes widened. knowing that maybe it's my mom or my aunt or even the next door neighbor.

I got up and ran my arm under the cold water I took off my clothes and rinsed them. watered down blood oozing out every time I ran my shorts under the water. I wiped the blood off if my legs and my arm. I wrapped my arm with gauze and a wrap. I ran to my room and put on a long sleeved shirt. With some jeans.

The knock got louder and louder.

"I'm coming!" I yelled

I swung the door open.

"Nash" I said in a whisper

"Hazel" he said back

"Oh my god" I said wrapping my arms around him taking him into my embrace.

The last time I saw Nash was at the car accident.

"Hello, hazel." he said hugging me back

"We're have you been, I haven't seen you in a long time. and I'm so sorry for what happened the day at the hospital." I said quickly

"Woah, slowdown hazel, I came to apologize for ignoring you and for trying to avoid you since that day. and I also came to say that I respect your relationship with Cam and if you ever need anything just remember that I'm here for you." he said

"Wow, um well you don't have to apologize because I deserved what you said to me that day."

"No I do have to apologize because, no one should ever talk to you or any girl in that way." Nash said

"Thank you nash. and about the whole Cam and I thing. Yea you don't have to worry cuz we are not together anymore."

"What, since when you guys were so in love." he said not believing what I had said

"It's true I broke up with him because he always expects me to forgive him every time he does something bad to me and he also promised he would never hit me and......."

"No, he would." he said

"Yea he hit me."

"Wow I'm so sorry." Nash said

"Sorry, oh my god I haven't even offered you to come in, haha I'm sorry would you like to come in?"

"Haha sure why not"

"So why haven't you been to school lately?" I asked

"Well I told my mom that I didn't really want to go to school. but she said I couldn't quit school. so I had to chose home schooling." he said

"That's cool, I wish I could do that."

He went to the living room and sat down. it seemed like he wanted to tell me something but he doesn't know how

"Why are you acting so weird." I asked

"Sit."

I looked at him in a worried way.

"I have to tell you something but you have to promise not to tell anyone, not Cam, not your mom, not my mom." he said

"Nash what's going on your scaring me."

"Promise me you wont." he said

"I promise I won't tell any one." I said

He stuck out his pinky. as a signal for "pinky promise"

"Really?" I said

"Yes I'm serious you can't break a pinky promise" he said

I giggled and stuck out my pinky and we both said in sync

"Pinky promise"

"Ok, well......."

Authors note**

Hey guys sorry that I haven't updated in a while. I've jus been in a really bad place in life but I promise I will update sooner.

sorry for the cliff hanger!

-D xx