Im sorry (nash grier and cameron dallas)

Ch 17

Nash POV***

"Nash seriously what is it" she was worried

I don't know how to tell her. she's probably going to hate me forever. Jesus ok I'm just going to say it.

Here I go

"I was diagnosed with cancer" I said quickly

Her eyes started watering and she covered her mouth.

"No, no no" she cried

At this point I was also crying

"But it's ok because the doctor said it was highly curable" I tried to reassure her

"Nash oh my god why no. why you no. I wish I had the cancer not you!" She cried harder

"No please don't say that"

I pulled her in for a hug. we sat there in silence holding each other as tight as possible while I heard her cry into my shoulder.

"I love you so much nash" she broke the silence

"I love you too. I love you more than words can explain." I cried

"Please don't leave please stay here with me" she asked

"Of course"

I stood up and walked to the kitchen to get her a glass of water. I walked to her and handed her the glass but something caught my eye.

Her wrist.

It was bleeding

"Hazel what the hell is that" I said pointing at her wrist

"Oh nothing I was at Tara's and her cat scratched me"

I know she's lying. I hate it when she does this, because she doesn't understand that I'm I love with her, and I know that I can't love her because she's Cameron's but I can't help it she's beautiful she all I ever wanted.

"Why do you lie to me?" I asked

"I'm not"

"Hazel I love you and you need to understand that this is not ok and that I want to help you." I said crying

I reached for her wrist. she flinched at first. but I told her it was ok and she let me take her wrist.

"Does it hurt?" I asked

"Yes?"

I unwrapped her wrist knowing to brace myself for what I was about to see.

It was fresh.

All of the cuts were fresh and bloody.

"Why?" I asked

"I'm just tired of living. tired of being alone and not being able to keep a relationship. I'm just tired of being alone." she said

"But I love you and you know that and you know that if you ever need anything I'm here for you. you are the most beautiful person I have ever laid my eyes on. why can't you see that" I cried

"I'm sorry."

"No don't apologize. you shouldn't, you've been apologizing for too long and this time it's my turn. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for putting you through all of this and I'm sorry for treating you like shit and for bullying you and for everything wrong I ever did. I sorry." I said

I took her wrist and gave her a look that asked for permission. she nodded.

I took her wrist and pulled it up to my lips and kissed every single cut and scar that was on her arm. every time I kissed a cut I would tell her that I loved her for her.

When I was finished she looked at me.

"Thank you. and I would cry but I'm too tired to cry right now." she giggled

"I love you Hazel Rose."

"And I love you Hamilton Nash"

"Let's just say Nash" I said

"Would you do me the honor of cuddling with me?"

"Yes of course. I really need a cuddle right now." She said

"Well then what are we waiting for let's go have a nap." I said

We laid on her bed for a few minutes.

"Nash?" She asked

"Hmmmm"

"You do realize we can't be anything other than friends" she asked

"Yea, and I'm ok with that cuz at this moment we are havering a friendly cuddle." I said

"Thank you for understanding."

"When are you talking to cam again?" I asked

"I don't know. not for a while that's for sure. he's been a real jerk lately." she said in a worried voice

"Oh ok. but I think you should talk to him cuz he really loves you." I said

"You think?"

"I know"

I looked down and saw her eyes closing.

I leaned down to kiss her forehead. she flinched and I stopped before I kissed her and said.

"Friendly"

With than I kissed her forehead and she smiled and soon after she feel asleep.

AUTHORS NOTE***

Hey guys so super sorry that I haven't updated. I've been so supper busy. I hope you like this chapter. I love you guys!!!! Oh and I've really been into 5sos lately so I was wondering if you guys want a fanfic about them together/individually. just let me know.

-Dxx