Rule breaker (competed)

Rule 24

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my head is pounding like its going to explode anytime... my throat were so dry and im dreaming a lot of cold beverages except for alcohol...  even my wholebody is aching... i get up and just found myself with lots of bruises...

then theres that pain stinging in my forehead at nung hawakan ko ay may bandage na doon..

"SHIT, what  happened lastnight? last thing i remember is im dancing wildly in the middle of the dancefloor... "

bumangon ako at nanginginig ang katawan ko... thats why i hate hangover..  napansin kong nagpalit narin ako ng damit.... i can see a bowl in my bedside and a towel...

"i need to drink something.. " kaya lumabas ako ng kwarto then I found out its raining hard outside...  isang malalaking lagok ng inumin ko ang malamig na malamig na tubig..

-this is heaven-, sabi ko sa sarili ko... now I can feel my stomach like its flipping into knots and then here we go.. i throw up in the sink...  lahat ng nainom kong tubig lumabas.. with some taste of bitter from inside... YIKESSSS...

i vomit and vomit and vomit until i Decided to drink an aspirin...  hanggang sa kumalma ang tyan ko at naghanap ng makakain.. im so hungry its already 10 in the morning and who knows what time ako nakauwi...

nakahiligan ko narin atang tumingin sa salamin naging narcisistic na ata ako ... i checked myself in the mirror.. bihis na ako at malinis, maybe Nay Cerry cleaned me up,..

nakakahiya naman pati underwear ko napalitan.. nahagip ng tingin ko ang mesa.. may nakatakip doon sa pagkakaalala ko kahapon wala naman ..  kaya pinuntahan ko, nung binuksan ko may bacon, sunnyside up egg at pancake na doon katabi ay tomato juice at aspirin...

agad akong umupo at kinain ko ang food for just a few minutes.. ganyan ako kagutom...  ang ininum ko nalang agad ang tomato juice since nag aspirin na ako...

I spend the whole day sleeping dahil feeling ko na drain ang katawan ko... around 7 nagising ako...  paglabas ko tumila na rin ang ulan and then i saw a paper bag in the table...

nung binuksan ko ito mainit init pa so went outside at baka maabutan ko ang naghatid at makapagsalamat... but no ones there..   kumain ulit ako at naligo... 

habang nagbabad ako sa tubig inalala ko lahat ng nangyari ... till i remember some sober words i said to Clark.. i just came into a realization that i already let him go last night..

hanggang doon lang talaga ang naaalala ko aside from that...  its not on plan pero its better that way na siguro... habang may lakas pa ako ng loob para sabihin yun sa kanya...

nung magsabon na ako napansin ko ang pula sa may bandang dibdib ko...  its looks like a rashes.. pilit kong pinaniwala ang sarili ko na nakamot ko ito, i know my skin is sensitive but this is not a scratch...

-- what did I do last night?... kinabahan ako.. is this from stranger? oh my God no, ok lang sakin kung galing kay Clark, pero asa, he's like a statue lastnight i was crying hard while bidding goodbye but he said nothing in response...

[coz he doesnt care, maybe he's celebrating now for having his freedom tho para sa kanya matagal na syang nakalaya sa akin nung panahon binitawan ko sya.. ]

i did everything para mawala tong hickey sa dibdib ko, naghot compress ako atleast to lessen the redness of it...  the queen between my legs doesnt hurt kaya im sure di ako nagalaw kagabi...

'Shiiit why am i so stupid to drink above my limitation... sana lang wala akong nagawang katangahan kagabi.. bakit ba kasi nakakalimutan ko ang mga nangyayari..  Stupid...