Complicated

Chapter 9

Elsa's POV:

So... long time no chat.
I was walking after going to Dream Bean with Jack...
Jack just confessed to me and I have no idea how to react right now. I mean I used to love him the way he loves me but now I don't, I think.

I've been with Brandon for about 4 months now and everything is good. I just don't have super strong feelings towards him yet. I'm not sure if I will. I know I still have little feelings for Jack but I'm with Brandon right now and he is such an amazing guy. He is taking me out for my birthday. And since it is my 21st birthday I can drink. I'll probably be spending it with him.

I usually spend my birthday with Jack since our birthdays are so close. We can't do that now. I need time to think about everything. All of this. My relationship with Brandon. Whether I like Jack still. I need time to think and right now I'm a little frazzled. I wish he would have told me before Brandon got into the picture. It's alright though. I guess I'll just have to put more thought into these decisions right now.

It actually makes sense now why Jack was acting so weird. Why he was so distant. Why he didn't really talk much when all three of us would hangout. It all makes sense. And I was hurting him without even knowing it. That is the worst discovery I have found out. I was hurting him. And just knowing that makes me want to cry.

I haven't talked to anybody about this yet because nobody was home. Anna was still at school. Mama must have been with Papa at work. Mama doesn't usually work at the company. She would usually take her work home that way she was there for me and Anna, but I guess today was different. Yet again.

I told Jack that we need time away from each other because I have to think about all of this. And I'm sure he will need time too. I just hope he doesn't become a stranger because I wouldn't be able to handle that if he did. He is my partner in crime. He is such an awesome guy, who deserves better than me.

Anyway, I decided to make my way back home. I did let Anna know where I was going since she was still home before I left the house to meet Jack. So she will probably ask what happened. It wasn't too long of a walk.

When I walked through the door, Anna was sitting on the couch watching tv. She looked up when I walked through the door.

"Hey, Elsa! How did it go?" She asked. That's when I lost it. I started crying. Anna ran towards me and hugged me trying to comfort me. I hugged her back crying into her shoulder. She somehow managed to get me to stand up and move us to my room. When we were there she sat us both down on the bed.

"What happened?" She asked softly. I took in a deep breathe trying to compose myself before I start crying again.

"W-well, he t-told me he h-had feelings for m-me. He said he l-loved m-me," I said still stuttering.

"That's great. He finally confessed to you," Anna said. I looked at her wide eyed.

"Y-You knew?" I asked. She gave out a nervous laugh.

"Yeah. It was quite obvious. He would always have such a big smile when you were around and he practically had goo-goo eyes for you all the time," she giggled.

"I didn't even realize that. I'm such a horrible person," I said starting to cry again.

"Elsa, that doesn't make you a horrible person. Sometimes people are just blind to see the actions people do for them. Like with Jack, he would come here and pick you up to take you to work then drop you off at home all the time. He did so many things for you that he wouldn't normally do for anyone else," she said.

"Wow, Anna that totally helped me think I'm a good person," I said. My comment was sarcastic if you couldn't tell. I was still crying too.

"That's not what I meant," she said.

And I chuckled, "I know."

"So, what is the plan for you two now?" She asked.

"I told him that we are going to need some time apart since this is a lot of information to take in for me. I didn't exactly reject him, I just didn't tell him how I felt yet. I'm still trying to figure that out," I said.

"What do you mean "figure that out," she asked.

"I'm not so sure I am in love with Brandon or how I feel towards Jack right now," I said.

"Wait, what?" She said and I laughed.

"I am confused of my feelings myself right now," I said.

"So you're saying you might not like like Brandon after all?" She asked sounding a bit too excited if you ask me.

"Sure? Why are you so excited about this?" I asked.

"Because I've been shipping you and Jack for the longest of time! Brandon honestly just got in the way and he isn't the nicest guy anyway," she said. I just stared at her for a while.

"What the hell Anna? Why didn't you, I don't know say something before?" I asked.

" I wasn't about to tell you how Jack felt and if I did share my Jelsa ship with you, you wouldn't even think about him like that and think it was weird. And you seemed to be happy with Brandon but then I heard him saying rude stuff to Jack a while back," she said. I stared at her in disbelief.

"You even made up a ship name for us? And what kind of stuff did Brandon say?" I asked.

"Yes I did. It's cute. And Brandon was just being a jerk saying that Jack wouldn't have a chance with you and that he really liked being with you and didn't want to break up with you anytime soon," she said. Oh dear gosh. This is a lot to take in, in one day.

"Did anything else go on?" I asked.

"Nope. Not from what I've heard," she said.

"Could you leave me alone in my room now? I need some time to think," I said and she nodded then left.

I laid down on my bed and started thinking about everything.

I did not think Brandon was a jerk. He was always so nice to me. He was so sweet and kind.

Jack had this crush on me for a year and 4 months. Why didn't he tell me before? It probably wouldn't have been as weird as it is now. I mean I love him as a friend and I did love him more than that at one point but that was a while ago. And I still might have those feelings somewhere in me but I'm just not so sure.

I don't know maybe I just need some sleep. I was about to when my phone buzzed.

"Hey, so for your birthday I was thinking I could take you to this bar so you could try your first taste of alcohol with me. What do you think?" ~Brandon

I sighed.
Should I go with him for my birthday?
Maybe I should, I mean what harm could there be in going with him?
I made up my mind and sent him back an answer.

"Sure, sounds good." ~Elsa