Warning!
This chapter may be a little bit rough because sometimes you need to speak your mind out if something bothers you. I'm sorry if you expect something else but I can't keep it for me anymore.
I'm dreaming. I'm running. I'm running in an neverending dream. I'm dreaming in a marathon of hell. There is no exit now if I am directly I am mean. If I shut up everyone is going to force me in saying something. If it's wrong they have fun if it's right they are going to say I'm mean. How can I stay positive in such an ugly world? I want to smile whenever I want. I don't want to hide anymore. How does he manages to be so happy even if this whole world is so unnecessary?
Maybe I should ask him.
somethingstrange
Uhm... May I ask you for advise?
baby.jungwoo
Yeah sure what is it? ^-^
somethingstrange
So... How are you always so happy and nice? Isn't there anything that bothers you?
baby.jungwoo
Oh well... Of course there are things that bother me. One day you will start to forget the people you love and start missing the ones who doesn't deserve it. You are going to change the way you think as soon as someone insults you, well at least I did.
somethingstrange
Really but you seem so innocent...
baby.jungwoo
Yeah believe it or not but I was as lost as you are right now ^^
somethingstrange
But... Your personality is so wonderful how did you manage too handle all of that?
baby.jungwoo
Well of course I had some thoughts I would say that are stupid so I started to rethink everything. What was worth it? I always thought. There were some days I could jump off from a roof or just hang myself and on some days it was easy to stop all these thoughts. I had a lot of problems and stuff but I keep living I tried things I would never do just like babysitting I used to hate everything and everyone but I just needed something to clear my head. So I started to do all those things I would never do and I felt much better. I felt like everything around me was colorful even if my life used to be a mess. Now I love everything ^^
somethingstrange
What was your problem?
baby.jungwoo
My best friend killed himself and everyone pointed and joked around that it was my fault
baby.jungwoo
I can still hear them laughing and joking even if I'm already away from them I can't sleep at night there is always someone laughing while I'm crying
someonestrange
Please don't cry! :(
baby.jungwoo
Don't worry! I will only for you shed my tears!
someonestrange
You are so sweet ;///;
baby.jungwoo
Anyways what bothers you?
someonestrange
it's not that hard like yours
baby.jungwoo
It doesn't matter. I'm here to listen to your words just like you did.
somethingstrange
Well I used to have a better life than I have now i'm not going to say something more because I really don't want to bother you
baby.jungwoo
Start doing something you would never do it helped me
somethingstrange
There is nothing I can do
baby.jungwoo
Talk to the boy you are always staring out of your window
What did he just write? I'm not dreaming right?
YOU ARE READING
𝐩𝐢𝐱𝐞𝐥 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞
Fanfiction↬𝚔𝚒𝚖 𝚓𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚠𝚘𝚘 my heart is actually worthless. that's what I thought until I met him. he made my heart complete.
