Opposite worlds »punk h.s

Chapter 64

{Lucy}

 

Maybe it took time but I'm in love with you.

Lucy.

I hold the napkin between my fingers, the paper is dirty, worn, slightly torn on the sides but the words are intact and the message is clear, what I meant to say is clear and precise. My heart tightened in my chest as I keep looking at the paper in my hands, while I'm reading the message again and again.

"Don't you dare to talk to me again in your life!" I hear Harry's voice and he is on the entrance. I cough with sore lungs and a choked sob escapes from my mouth. "Goodbye Lucy!" His voice is clear and strong and so painful for me. His voice gives me the impulse to run and escape from there.

"You can't hide forever," I hear Luciana's voice, my brother's girlfriend.

"I'm not hiding,"

"Being here in London, yes you are...but I don't blame you. Want to talk?"

"About what?"

"About everything or nothing, you decide and I hear," she closes the door to my room and the only light that illuminates is the one that comes from my window.

Talk, talk now becomes difficult. Express, let out words, confess, it's difficult because you can remember, because your memory is there to give you a fresh picture of what happened in the past.

I rest my fingers on the window and then my cheek. I relax for a few seconds, I close my eyes and forget that Luciana is here.

"Lucy tell me, you have barely spoken since you got here,"

"I told you what happened,"

"I know, I know, I'm just trying to help,"

I open my eyes and sigh.  Help? HELP?!

"Help with what? You can't help! I'm in love with a guy who broke my heart! What can you say or do to make me feel better? Nothing! "I almost yell and immediately I regret my behave. "I-I'm sorry,"

"Come here," Luciana hugs me and I begin to sob on her shoulder. "You have many things inside of you, I understand if you don't want to talk, but don't forget I'm here to listen,"

I cover my face with my hands and tried to control my tears. Luciana keeps me in her arms until I control my sob. Here in London, hidden away from my house and I with Luciana I feel better...just a little.

"I think it's almost time for dinner, are you hungry?" I shake my head. "Eat a little, share with the family, you'll need before you leave,"

"Can I stay here for a moment?"

"Sure, I'll hold distract your family," she kisses my cheek and then leaves me alone in my room.

I wipe my tears and keep the napkin in my bag. I am not able to dump it in the trash or destroy it with my own fingers. I'm not capable of many things and it's been three months since that night. I haven't spent three months here in London I only arrived a week ago because I couldn't stand school, my friends, my family, my heart and my mind couldn't stand everything. Nobody judged me when I got here, my dad and Luciana were happy about it.

In the bathroom I wash my face, I do my typical braid and stay a few minutes until my face looks as normal as possible. When I feel a little better I go to the dining room.

"Why took you so long Lucy? We were waiting for you! "Christine says as soon as she sees me. Christine is the girlfriend of my father and I hate her. I shouldn't feel this way about her but it is inevitable, I just don't like her.